Diagnosed

Chapter 8- Lost and found

Play the song now
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As I sit by the window, I try to forget about what happened this afternoon not only that I just want to forget about Hansol, all the memories I want to forget. I have never loved anyone as much as I love Hansol but at the same time I have never been hurt as much as Hansol has hurt me. I was sitting by the window, looking through photos of Hansol and I when it started to rain, to pore. As I got deeper into the photos the rain got louder, when I soon came across the picture of you and Hansol, you felt tears surface at your eyes but managed to hold them in as you know you can't cry over Hansol, not anymore.

These are the photos of Hansol and you

The night grew older and the rain grew louder as I sat by the window where I haven't moved from for the past 4 hours. I had a warm hot chocolate in my hand, and my phone in the other. I was listening to music when the next song played. (play song now)
' A drop in the ocean' my heart skipped a beat when it started playing as this is Hansol and my song, we danced to this all the time and when I was down he would sing this to me. Fond memories starting to grow wild in my mind, they were beautiful ones of Hansol and I. Our first kiss, our first date and when we first met. I was soon snapped out by my trance as my phone went off, I looked down at the screen to see a new message from 'Vernie❤️' just the sight of his name made me smile, but that soon faded as I remembered why I was sitting at this window, because of what Hansol did to me this afternoon. He ripped my heart out tore it into two. I ignored his message only to get several more, it was really starting to piss me off when I got a text, saying "look out your window" I jumped in surprise and looked it my window to see a very wet Hansol with a bouquet of flowers, roses my favourite. Not knowing what to do next my body picked me up and ran outside to join him in the ran. He handed me the flowers " I've fucked up pretty bad this time, but if you let me explain you will see that I didn't do anything to hurt you, I would never" I looked up at him " Hansol, I told you not to come after me and apologise it's done, we are done I don't want this friendship anymore" he looked down at the ground then made contact with me again, "neither do I y/n" I looked at him with tears forming in the corner of my eyes and right before I was about to speak " I want more than a friendship y/n, I have wanted this for a long time too but I have never been sure" I looked at him in disbelief, I can't just forgive him for what he has done, he has to make it up to me. "You can't just say that and think that I'm going to pretend like nothing happened, prove yourself" he nodded "and Hansol first you can start by explaining what happened today?" He gulped at these words "well, Isabel is my tutor and she comes around every Tuesday afternoon, I really hate it cause she is annoying and is such a bitch, anyways she came round and that's why I didn't text back cause I was in the middle of it when the door bell rung. Then we went to my room and she was staring at me, I got really pissed of by her staring and then the next thing I new she had pulled herself on me and kissed me, I'm really sorry y/n. I just want your forgiveness because I thought I had lost you" I looked at him his eyes starting to water, he grabbed my face in his hands "y/n will you be my girlfriend, this time officially?" I was still mad but he had explained everything and I love him, I plastered a big smile on my face " of course I will Hansol, I love you"  he picked me up and spun me in circles " I love you too y/n" he kissed me passionately in the freezing cold rain.
As he pulled away he mumbled " I thought I lost you y/n, but now I have found you" he kissed me one more time on the cheek as we made our way back to the house.  When we reached the house we went to the window and flicked through the photos, he pulled out the one of me and Hansol on the beach and then grabbed my face, "why didn't I ask you out then?" I just laughed as he said "y/n this is the happiest I've been for along time" his placed a gentle kiss on my hand, " me too Hansol"
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