After that I know for a fact that the rest of the day is going to suck. I just have to get through this day. I just have to make it home without breaking down again. Only two more classes. I hear the late bell ring and I know Mr. Brown will excuse my tardy because I am his favorite student. Mainly because I am good at science and have been finishing my assignments early.
As I walk to class I pull out my headphones and put them in and turn on my playlist. Shadow Of the Day by Linkin Park comes on first and I already start to feel a bit better.
I walk to my chemistry class and open the door. My face flushes with heat as everyone turns to look at me. Mean while my eyes are focused on the very dirty floor. Mr. Brown looks at me, and doesn't say anything.
He is probably one of my favorite teachers, cause he is probably the only teacher that doesn't ask me how I am doing, or how my brother is, or if I wanna talk about it. He just understands that if I want to talk about it I will. If not, you can take that fake sympathy and shove it where the sun don't shine.
As I take a seat in the very front of the class, I lay my head on my desk and focus on the song...
Sometimes solutions aren't so simple
Sometimes goodbye is the only way
Oooh
And the sun will set for you
The sun will set for you
And the shadow of the day
Will embrace the world in gray
And the sun will set for you
Just then I feel a hand on my shoulder and I jolt up. I look to the direction of the contact and see Andrew. Of course! How could I be so stupid and forget that he was in this class now. And he sat right next to me.
"Hey" he said in a tone I am all to familiar with. In the same tone that people talked to me in at the funeral. At my parents funeral...
"Stop"
"Stop what?" He said, and I could see that he actually didn't understand.
"Stop looking at me like that. Like your sorry." I said a little too harsh.
"But I am sorry. I didn't mean to upset you when I bumped into you. And I am really confused on why you are upset." He said. I realized that he doesn't know about my parents. Or what happened.
Is he always this open with his feelings?
"Yes" he said.
"Crap did I say that out loud?" I said and was completely mortified.
"Yes you did" he said and laughed. And then, I started to laugh a bit with him. It was strange considering that today has been a total disaster. But in that moment I felt that is what I needed.
"So, would you like to talk about it?" he said in a less sad tone than the, 'aww you poor thing' tone. It just sounded like he actually cared, he wasn't just saying it out of courtesy. He actually wanted to know.
I think.
" I would like to, but not here." I said, and he nodded in response.
"I understand." He said and stood up and grabbed his bag.
"Where are you going?" I asked confused.
"Not me, we!" He said with a smirk. God I want to smack that smirk off his face. I hate it when guys do that.
"Mr. Brown, may we please be excused?" He yelled to the teacher.
Of course our teacher was not dumb enough to let two students out of class. Who knows what they would do. But when he looked and saw me standing with him he let us go. I am not sure whether this was because I was his favorite or because he knows that I won't do anything stupid. Maybe it is even because he feels like with everything that has happened I deserve to do something besides follow the rules. To be free for once.
When we left we didn't say anything to each other. I just followed Andrew to where he was taking me.
I know y'all are probably like, "what the heck girl, he gon kill you!" But something about him made me feel like that isn't who he is. That he didn't have bad intentions. That he wouldn't hurt me like I had been before.
We walked out of the school and into the parking lot. I continued to follow him till he stopped in front of an old, beat up, light blue truck. Don't ask me what kind it was cause I have no idea. I don't even have a car for myself. Mainly because I was told after the incident that I was not allowed to drive until further notice. I just have my dark blue bike.
I got into the passenger seat and looked at him. He obviously saw the worry in my eyes because his gaze softened when he looked at me.
"I'm not gonna kidnap you. I am just taking you to my house so we can talk alone." He said softly. To this I responded with a simple nod.
Today seems to be going on for years and I was just sitting along for the ride. Watching everything around me. Even though today was long, and started out well. It got worse, and I really just want this day to be over.
While I was thinking I slowly started to nod off. I got so consumed in my thoughts that I felt tired, and eventually fell asleep...
<hey guys! DOUBLE UPDATE! So don't be surprised if I don't update tomorrow. I will try best I can, but it is the first time in a while that everyone in my family is off of work so we get to be together as a family. GROSS😂. Anyways...
I love y'all! Hope y'all had a good Monday. I know some people are still in school, so tell me how that went! Comment what you think so far, or how school was, or if your hungry😂 CAUSE ME TOO! Ask me questions if y'all wanna know things about me! And I will answer them all! Okay I am ranting now! BYES!!! >
