Until That Day

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Chapter 2

Curiosity kills the cat. In some psychotic timeline, curiosity kills the idiot. Sometimes man goes through different processes that end up beating him into a pulp. Who's to blame? Yes, we blame it on the C-word. In this world I realized that sometimes we need to be cowards because that's the only way for you to be on the safe zone. Just ignore the 'what if's' that will be bombarding your head because in the end, according to the great Star Scream, the cowards survive.

And so there I was, feeding my curious mind and I gave in to the temptation that is Joseph. Ever since that night at Target we never stopped having chats with him being all charming.

"Dude, seriously. Who are you texting?" Jun said turning from the book he's reading.

"Just someone I met..."

"At Target." He finished for me. "Are you that serious? She must've been pretty hot."

I flinched a bit at his comment not knowing what to retort. At the same time, my insecurities rose like suppressed steam and the only thing I can come up with was self defense.

"And what if I told you this person is not what you expect? How do you think you would react to that?" I said quite agitated.

"Whoa, are you into cougars? Cause if you are bro that's still totally hot." He said again now putting the book down and facing me.

"No dude. You don't get it." I sighed a little more frustrated.

"No tell me Scott. If she's a chub or of a different race or whatever, I swear, I'm never going to make fun of you." He said and I felt his sincerity.

I thought about what he said and decided that I needed to open up a little.

"And what If I told you I don't like girls?" I blurted out before my insecurities get the best of me.

"Whoa! I won't care if you're gay dude but, seriously?" He asked wide-eyed.

"I don't even know Jun." I admitted, relieved that he is not a homophobe. "I guess I'm kind of a bisexual."

"Well whatever floats your boat." He smiled sincerely. "So who's this lucky guy?"

"His name is Joseph." I smiled remembering his smile. My thought cloud was dispersed when I heard my phone ring.

"Joe, I said yes didn't I? I'd go on a date with you." I said answering the phone with Jun giving me the two thumbs up. I chuckled lightly at his action.

"Who's Joe?" Shocked to hear Louie's voice, I was speechless and checked the phone screen mentally cursing myself for not looking at the caller ID first.

"Scott? You there?" Louie's voice said from the other line.

"Louie? Hey what's up?" I said very embarrassed.

"Scott, is there something you want to tell me?" Louie said with a tone I can't quite comprehend. "Who were you expecting? Is this Joe your boyfriend? Are you even gay?"

"I can explain Lou." I sighed.

"I'm all ears." He said.

"Well, you see, it's hard for me to tell you this cause I don't even know if I am gay. Well maybe I am bisexual and I'm sorry. I'm sorry I didn't tell you because I don't know how you will react. I don't want you to look at me like I'm someone different. I-"

"When did you feel this?" He cut me off with a serious tone. I worried a bit and began feeling rejection.

"Well... Since junior year." I admitted giving Jun a thumbs up as he was still looking to me with a worried expression. He smiled empathetically.

"Junior year and you didn't even tell me? Come on man! I thought we are best friends!" He said irritated. "You've been hiding it from me for almost three fucking years? Does Ginny know about this?"

"No. I told you. I'm not sure about what I'm feeling back then." I panicked.

"Wait, isn't junior year the time when you started dating Ginny? What was all that? A ploy?" He said with his voice raising more.