hostage (cody herbinko)

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codys pov

i woke up before she did and i decided to get out of bed
when i looked at the clock, it was 2:15am
i grabbed my jacket, my car keys, and i was out the door
i didn't know where i was going
i like to go on long drives when i have a lot on my mind
how was i going to tell her that i keep people in hostage to torture them?
if she ever found out, she would probably hate me
i haven't done it in a while
ever since she walked into my life, everything has been so much happier and easier for me
but what happens if she leaves?
or if we get in a fight?
then i become frustrated with myself and i want to bring pain to my body
i wish i had the courage to hurt myself
i'm too much of a coward to do it
i guess i drive for a pretty long time because when i checked the clock for the second time, it read "4:57am"
i got back home as fast as i could and went back into her room
i looked down on her and i found myself placing a kiss on the top of her forehead
"i hope you're dreaming good my princess"
i quietly left and once i got into my room, i went to sleep as fast as i could