The Heart Wants What It Wants

Chapter One!

Disclaimer: These fics are written by me, None of this ever happened as much as I wish it did. I don't own Jai, sadly so this is a work of pure fiction!

Chapter One-

Making people happy is my greatest treasure. I know it sounds cheesy but really, I love making people happy. I love healing wounds, both physical and emotional; which is why I got into the medical field. But now I wonder about myself. Isn't it about time that I concentrate on my wants, needs, desires and happiness? Oh. Right. There it is: sitting on a vintage Honda in a leather jacket and a pair of chucks.....with a gorgeous blue eyed blonde in his lap. Yep. Welcome to my world. Always. Every fucking time. I think the universe is trying to tell me something. "Nice try, idiot! Do you think you exist to him?" Yeah Yeah Yeah, I got it. Thanks.

Am I a bitch for internally rolling my eyes everytime he makes her giggle? I know that sense of humor. It's easy to giggle around him. That and faint at the sight of the always glued on shit eating grin. You know what, universe? I'll show you! He does know I exist! I mean, cmon, I was the lucky one to give him a tetanus shot yesterday. Oh God, I sound like Baby from Dirty Dancing. "I carried a watermelon!" Idiot.

I'm so seriously annoyed with myself. Why do I have to torture myself like this? What am I doing? I'm just driving myself crazy over a guy that I can't have. Out of the corner of my eye, a black car pulls up and opens the door. What?? Is she really leaving?? No way! In a way I want to know where she's going but in another, I hope she doesn't come back. Wow.. I really am a bitch. Am I really this miserable?

"Boo!!"

I almost jump out of my skin from a booming voice outside the window. This is what I get for sitting in front of an open window. There it is: shit eating grin.

"I'm gonna kick your ass! Thanks for that. Really."

No. No. No. Don't do that. Don't raise that eyebrow at me. Stop crossing your arms!!! Obviously he isn't going to listen, then again, I'm not exactly verbalizing it. I try to give him a stern, pissed off look but he just laughs.

"Kick my ass? Really? Can you even reach my ass? You're like two feet tall!" He teased. My obvious lack of height is always his teasing point. That and his existence and sharing oxygen with me. Hmm.. I'd really like to share his oxygen and his mouth.. what..?

"Don't push me.." I warned. Oh yeah that sounded reeeeeeeeally convincing. He laughs again and shakes his head at me. I know, I'm so menacing sometimes. Or.. not.

Honestly, I try not to be. I try to be the sweet, caring, annoyingly happy in the morning me. Don't ask how I do that because I'm not exactly a morning person. I sigh and tell him to hang on. Instead of having a conversation through a window screen, I decide to go outside. He still has his arms crossed pretending to be impatiently waiting. I just roll my eyes as I always do and lean against the wall.

"You alright? You seem kinda... off lately?" Wow.. he noticed. See, Universe. I'm getting somewhere. He noticed that I haven't been myself.. I know I haven't. I just can't shake it. Between micromanagers, 12 hour days, and trying to keep myself away from him as much as possible so I don't rip his clothes off, I'm just in a rut. I can't tell him that though,

"Nah, I'm cool. I'm good." I say trying to convince us both that its the truth. I wish it was the truth. He nods as if to appease me and make me believe that he thinks I'm telling the truth. I know what you're doing, hot ass. I know it very well.

"Your date didn't pan out, did it?" How the hell?! HOW DID HE KNOW I HAD A DATE?! Sneaky Aussie bastard.. gorgeous, smart, sexy.. sneaky Aussie bastard. I just shrug and look away, pretending once again to not be bothered. He put his arm on my head as everyone does that is taller than me and gives it a little nudge, leaning against the same wall I am.

"It was okay.. I mean, he's nice.. I just hate being led on. Ya know? you find someone that you think is absolutely awesome and you end up getting disappointed. Either they don't want a reationship or... one with you and friend zone you... or they have a girlfriend. Either way, you're friend zoned." I really hope he didn't catch that I was kinda talking about him. But in all honesty, thats what happens. All the god damn time and I'm so tired of it.

"Guys are stupid. They think with their cocks because they don't trust their brains or their hearts, if they even have them. If they don't want you, its their loss. Shrug it off and keep on going. Did he feel your tits??" He gives me that childish grin and chuckle again. How do I keep my calm? HOW AM I NOT ON THE GROUND RIGHT NOW?! I look over at him with wide eyes and tilt my head in surprise. No really, I am surprised.

"No, he did not! But he was staring at them..." I smirked, quipping proudly. I do have to say, they're hard to ignore. Apparently, Mr. Sex on Legs has noticed. Well, considering blondie doesn't look to be up to par in that department. Woop Woop! Points for me!

"How can you not? they're like.. there." Oh Universe... are you listening??!! HE'S TALKING ABOUT MY CHEST!! I'm getting somewhere.. I think. Actually, I'm starting to feel a little bit better. I just shrug and cross my arms, without even thinking. Yeah, I probably shouldn't do that. V neck scrubs and big boobs... hot man next to me.. oh shit. I totally try to change the subject.

"I want sushi... hmm I think I'm getting some on my way home."

"Which is in....45 minutes?"

Okay, how does he know my schedule? Right.. it's posted outside so the cast and crew knows who is on. The perks of working for emergency medicine contracted for this shoot. God, I love my job. I love my job. I love my job. I nod and look at my phone to make sure of the time. 45 minutes next to this gorgeous piece of meat? Okay! Quickly, I answer a text from one of my best friends and look over at an eavesdropping Jai.

"What..?? Can't a girl answer a text?? Don't worry, it's not about you!"

"You forgot to tell, Jenna that you're getting sushi with me after work. might want to add that in since you told her you didn't have plans. by the way, I need your number. ya know, in case.."

Real smooth.. reeeeeeeeeeeeeeal smooth. I'm sorry, I can't hear you, my ears are ringing and I think I'm going to have a panic attack. Sushi,, with Jai.. WHAT?! WHAT?! Calm down, dumb ass. Don't make a scene.

"Oh, now I'm going with you?" Hello shit eating grin. I've missed you. Fuck me sideways already. Seriously. Seriously. He just nods as if it's nothing and so nonchalant. What a little.. well.. big.. scruffy teddy bear that I want to hump mercilessly. Still! He knows! I swear it! He knows! Now what the fuck am I going to do? New strategy. Come up with a new strategy and keep it to yourself.