Unloved

Chapter 5

Good morning cutie

This is the message that I was greeted with whenever I woke up. This simple gesture made me actually look forward to the day.

This was something that I know my mother had noticed, but I didn't tell her why. Mostly because I was still hurt with everything even if right now I had found a bit of happiness. I think my mom noticed my reluctance to talk to her, and she offered me a new haircut, and I was excited despite my reluctance to interact with my mother for any long duration of time, but I decided to plant a smile on my face just like I had to when no one knew what was happening. It's funny because now that everyone knows nothing has changed. I'm forced to live through life with a smile that hides the worthless creature inside. I shake my head telling myself I'm not worthless we have Shane now and he doesn't think I'm worthless right? I hope not.

I turned my thoughts over to my hair cut and decided I was going to get blue streaks in my black hair and I wanted to go with a short, face framing asymmetrical bob. I felt like before I go to school next month I needed a change and my hair was going to be one of the changes. Besides I couldn't wait to show Shane when I get to school.

I got ready quickly putting on my black pants and a black shirt with a gray design of a kitten on it, and meanwhile the whole time I was texting Shane. In fact we text everyday throughout the day until one of us falls asleep and I was grateful he distracted me from my life at home. As I got out of my room I came face to face with the monster that destroyed me, or as my mom likes to call him my brother. He attempted to talk to me, but I sidestepped him, heading to the living room where my dad was as I wait until my mom is done getting ready. Then I took my phone out, and Shane had messaged me.

Cutie, I know I've asked you out already, but I want to ask you again. Will you go out with me?

I remember he had asked me out, since the second week we had started texting, but I told him no because I thought we needed to get to know each other more. With time, I have become more and more convinced by him that we should date because I knew he made me happy. With that I felt no need to hesitate and I responded to his text.

Yes, I will

Really cutie are you sure I could wait longer if you're not sure you know.

Yeah I'm sure Shane because I really like you ^_^

You make me so happy cutie
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Lol omg that's so cute

Not as cute as you cutie ;)

Omg no I'm not

Yes you are

Before I could respond my mom walked in.

"Who are you talking to?"

"A friend."

"What friend has you smiling this much? Is it a guy? "

Really mom I thought. You think we are on good enough terms to talk about this. Ugh might as well tell her, or she will get even more suspicious. I honestly don't want her to know I'm dating anyone right now.

"Yeah he's a guy, but we're just friends?"

"What's his name?"

"Shane, why?"

I swear she better not think of checking up on him. Seriously, I need space.

"No es nada hija. No mas estaba preguntando" she said before we headed to the salon.
Translation: It's nothing, daughter. I was just asking.

As we went to the salon the silence continued and halfway through my haircut they left because it was taking too long. I thought so too. I mean sitting down for three hours is too much, but I spent a lot of time texting my boyfriend Shane. When it was done I was completely in love with the look. I couldn't wait until school started. Let's just hope this happiness lasts.