I woke up but had my eyes closed, in attempt to fall back asleep. Removing the arm around me and sat up, turning my face to see Alex fast asleep. Looking back at the window, I pulled on my shorts, which were on the floor next to me, I walked to the window and opened the blinds. My attention landed on a bird. Who was sitting on her nest. After a few seconds she stood and flew down, I followed with my eyes, when she past the gate in front of the house.
Ryan
Ryan stood looking at the house, when he reached the window I stood at, we locked eyes. I wrapped my arms around my chest and neck in attempt to hide the hickeys that Alex made last night.
Ryan's eyes left mind and looked behind me, following his gaze to Alex who I didn't here get up. Alex came closer to me wrapping his arms around my waist, I felt Alex's breathe against my shoulder, then kisses moving from my shoulder to my neck. "Come on, we need a shower and I have work." Alex said releasing me and walking to the bathroom. My eyes were still locked with Ryan's, his eyes were glossy and tears left his eyes. I closed my eyes and closed the blinds, a warm tear slide down my face. Letting out a breath I didn't know I was holding and walked to the bathroom.
*****
After showering, I walked to my room and got dressed, now I stood in the mirror in my bathroom putting on some black eyeshadow, eyeliner and then began straitening my hair, "Richard." Alex said from my room, "in hear" I said turning off my straighter. Alex open the door and smiled, "um... your not going to like this but I need yo to go to school." Letting out a groan and pouted my face. "Just please go to one class and I'll get you something." I sighed an nodded, Alex walked over, planting a kiss on my lips and smiled. "Breakfast, and we're leaving in 15 minutes" he walked out, shutting the door behind him.
*****
Alex turned off the car and looked over, "One full class, not just 2-3 minutes. All class." I nodded, leaning over and kiss him. Moving my hand over his area and rubbed up and down. Alex pulled away, "that's not going to work" a laugh left both our mouth. After saying 'goodbye', I exited the car and began my way into school, shoving my earphones in my ear. The bell rang to signal everyone to get to class, blasting AFI, I walked to my first class.
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I walked to class with Devin, who was talking about Kylie and how perfect she was. When we got to class I took my seat with Devin in front of me and Ashley behind.
"Today"
I jumped and saw Mr. Smith walk in with a wide grin. "Today, we will discuss of Poetry. Poems are a way to express your love, hatred or both. It's powerful what a po-" he was cut off by the door opening. Ricky walked in, "what a surprise. Ricky your la-"
"Richard."
"Okay. Richard your late but your hear so please take your seat." Ricky walked over and sat in front of Devin. "Like I was saying, you will write a poem about love or hatred or both. I'll pick five of you to share your poem to the class. Begin." Mr. Smith took a seat in his desk and started reading the newspaper. Devin slide a paper on my desk, unfolding the paper it read:
I thought he hated it when people called him Richard.
TJ said Alex has Ricky wrapped around is finger.
I gave Devin the note, who read it and shrugged his shoulders. Pulling a pencil from my bag, I stared at my blank page, love, hatred I was full of it but couldn't get the right words. Looking around the room I spotted Ally who had purple hair, that's new. she smiled at me and I returned. I looked straight and saw Ricky looking down at his paper, then began writing quickly.
It hit me, all the love and hatred only one word could express everything I was feeling. This word said it all, the love I have, the hatred I have.
*****
"Okay" Mr. Smith stood and pulled out a hat that had papers with all our names inside. He walked to Ricky, "Richard please pull a name." Ricky hand trembled as he stook out his hand in the hat. He pulled out a paper and handed to Mr. Smiths, "First but never least Scarlet"
Scarlet, a girl who sat in the back corner always listening to music except when with her boyfriend. She walked to the front nd I noticed how red her hair was. She read her poem about love.
Next
Jen about love
Then
Brandy about both
Then
Devin about both
Finally
Ricky. He stood, his knees shaking nd hands trembling the paper in his hands.
"he loves me, he hates me
I went to him, he came to me
I don't want to be
the one he comes to
when he's in need but
with him he makes me feel
safe and unsafe
he loves me, he hates me"
Ricky quickly sat own and put his head down, "alright, we have time or one more." the class groaned. "Ally pick" he held out the hat her. She reached in and pulled out a paper, Mr. Smith took the paper and read "Ryan, let's go"
I stood in front of the class and let out a deep breathe.
" HIM HIM HIM
HIM HIM HIM
HIM HIM
HIM"
I looked up to see Ricky with glossy eyes, the bell and before Mr. Smith said something Ricky ran out. I walked to my seat, got my bag and ran for Ricky, when I exited the room he ran to the bathroom.
Before anyone could get in I ran and locked the door behind me. Ricky stood in the corner crying his eyes out.
"Was t-the h-him, to A-alex or to me-e" he chocked out
"To the both of you" I said.
