The bright sun hit my skin as I position myself from my side to my back. My head on Chris's lap as he went on about some show they've been playing and how they're getting more famous. I watch the birds fly over me, casting a shadow over me for a second then back to watching the sun. Closing me eye and thought about how flying feels like, what if I was a bird, the breeze under my wings, feathers falling now and then and pooping on peoples as well as their cars and watch them get angry. A shadow went over me, causing my eyes to open slowing. Chris looked at me and smiled.
"What you thinking about?" he asked then move back have the sun hit my eyes making me shut them quickly. Sitting up, I turned my body to face Chris. Opening my eyes to see Chris with curiosity written all over his face, "I was thinking about being a bird and how I would poop on peoples also their cars and watch them get mad." I finished with a smile on my face as Chris was giggling. "Your something else" he said, standing and siting on his lap wrapping my arms around his neck and placed a kiss on his check. "isn't different a good thing" placing another kiss on the other check.
"Loves Birds" I looked over Chris head and saw Angelo, Frank, Ryan, TJ and Josh. "I think it's time for practice." I whispered in Chris ear, causing him to groan. "Not yet" annoyances laced his voice. "If you hate practice, why did you start a band?" I asked standing up, collecting my bag and pulled out my phone, checking the time. "Sorry, I got work in 15 min. and Lauren wants to give me something" Chris stood grading his bag then my hand and we walked down the bleachers.
"Bye, I'm going to the bathroom but have a good practice bye" I said kissing Chris's check and walked off saying 'hi and have a good practice' to the boys. Then walked o the bathroom, as I got closer, I heard screams and laughter coming from the bathroom. Once I was right outside I heard a girl yelling "Fucken Slut, all you'll ever be is a whore. Have fun in hell" dropping my bag and ran in.
Maria was on the floor with blood leaving her mouth, her makeup was smeared do to her crying and bruise coming to form on her arm. I looked up to see Paula, Melanie, and Stephanie laughing, "Leave her alone!!" I yelled causing them to look at me. "Why your just a joke" Stephanie yelled, "You have no friends, and Chris hates you, your mad cause I have a boyfriends who loves me." Pala yelled, "I can't believe I was your friend thank god I have my boyfriend" Melanie yelled at me. "Fuck you" with that I ran to them and kicked Melanie in the stomach making her fall to the ground. They picked Melanie up and ran out calling me names but my attention went to Maria who was laying there lifeless on the bathroom floor.
I sat Maria up against the bathroom stall, pulling a water bottle from my bag and brought it to her mouth letting her drink some. Removing my sweater, wetting it with some water from the sink and began wiping away some of the blood on her face and body. "Thanks" she said while looking down "Its okay I don't like them" I said causing her chapped lips to spread into a smile. Pulling out my makeup bag ad wiping away her old makeup with a wipe, then giving her my lip balm. She smile and apply some to her lips, rubbing them together to make sure they were fully coated. Handing her my makeup bag, she stood and walked to the mirror. Following her and began to wash the blood off my sweater in the following sink.
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"Why did you help me?" Maria asked giving me back my bag, "I though you hated me for, well you know" she shrugged. "Yeah, but that doesn't mean I can't help you and Chris told me that he went for the first girl he thought of" we walked out the bathroom and toward the exit. "They were beating me because I stopped hanging out with them" Maria said causing me to stop, "I'm not done" she said chuckling.(what I'm about to tell you is a real life event minus me getting beat. And the three girls are people that broke me and put me back in my depression.)
I continue walking, grabbing Maria's hand and sat on a bench. She gave a weak smile and sighed, "Melanie and I were friends for so long until our parents got into a fight and we stop seeing each other. Paula and I were friends in 8th grade and when we got into high school, we started hanging out with Stephanie and everything was fine until the first semester of 10th grade were Stephanie did something bad to me, and I tried to kill myself but I called Stephanie and told her. 11th grade we were fine but then Steve started hanging with me and Paula. Feelings started flying and Melanie came back the middle of the semester. She got a boyfriend with in a week. Slut right, so Paula and Steve got together. Then they started hanging with Steve's friends, by now Melanie would hang out with her boyfriend. I felt as if I was interrupting Steve because when I would talk to Paula he would give me a look that read 'can you leave I want to talk with my girlfriend' so I granted him is wish and left. Senior year Paula asked why I stopped and I told her. She got upset and now I'm here with bruise and cuts." she said laughing, "stupid right" she said laughing more with a couple of tears.
Glancing at her arms I could see bruise of different colors forming on her pale complication. "I won't let nobody touch or hurt you. If you want I will hang out with you and promise not to leave and not leave you in the shadows." I said pulling her into a hug. I felt her smile, while she let out a sigh, "I know why Chris loves you, your so kind even to people who've hurt you. Thank you" squeezing her to let her know we're okay.
"Can I use your phone to call my mom" I nodded handing her my phone, she dialed and walked off.
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"well that's my mom" Maria said hugging me then walked away. I walked to the shop to see Lauren. I explain as we ate chips, "So that's who Chris went for when you guys broke up" Lauren said stuffing more chips in her mouths, leaning against the counter and eating some chips. "What did you want to give me?" I asked causing Lauren to widen her eyes, then stand and walk to her station.
Walking back with a paper she handed it to me, "What is this?" She asked, looking at the paper to see the note I was writing. "And why does it say 'Goodbye Forever'"
"Ummm...."
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I wish I had a Jess tell me that and in my life.
Ashley
