「 excruciate / kth 」

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責め苛む excruciate | 章 ❶❼
—t a e h y u n g

i tried my best to drive
even if i was wounded.

you insisted that
i shouldn't but i still
carried on.

the trip home was
enveloped by utter silence
as we both think of ways
to mend our broken selves.

" why is he doing
this to me? "
you muttered between your
tears as i lock you around
my embrace while
we sit on the couch.

you hid it as an
afflicted secret.

the truth behind your
relationship with him.

how he abuses you.

you kept them all.

" now you're hurt
because of me. "
your words stuttering
while i tighten my embrace.
" i hate myself. "

and in that moment, i instantly pulled
you in for a kiss.

i couldn't take it anymore.

i couldn't take the
sight of you sobbing.

i want you to forget the pain.

i want us to forget the pain.

to heal each other's
tormented selves.

" i love you. "
i managed to utter while we kiss.
" he doesn't deserve you. "

but you directly receded
away from our kiss.

and it pained me so much.

at least,
you know how i feel.

you know how i feel
since the very beginning.