I didn't say I love you back.. When I said morning he wasn't there anymore he went for a walk and he didn't return..that's the last I'll get from him I was it would've been a real kiss not him kissing my head but I didn't know that'd be the last time I'd get a kiss or a hug or speak to him or let him hold me.. Last time I'd talk to the one I love..
I stopped myself this morning from texting the account I thought it was a dream.. I lost my boyfriend 6/9/16 and I'm never getting him back.
I know you didn't wanna leave you didn't have a choice.. And I can't cry at school I'll get made fun of.. But I really wish you were still here I was so ready to talk to you over the summer have more time to talk cause I wouldn't have school..today's my last day of school.. I don't I'll be able to find a boyfriend soon or later won't force me into sex. You didn't.. You were nice,and loving,and protective of me.. And I feel like crap without you. I never thought that be the last kiss. The last words. The last. Hugs then last time you held me. When I look at the chat it makes me and happy sad that I can't do any of those things with you anymore. Happy that I could call you my boyfriend and you loved me no matter what you always I mean also said this you know I love you? No matter what.. I always said yes and I love you too.. It kinda scared me how you scared that so often like you were gonna leave me... I can barely breathe I'm taking shaky breaths and I stop breathing for a second.. Maybe if I wouldn't have told you about the guy and just blocked you wouldn't have taken that walk just maybe. You don't know how I bad I need you now your not here.
I should've made him promise to be there in the morning I said that another time and idk why but I had a bad feeling so I said that this time I didn't get a chance I was tired I fell asleep on him..
Oops! This image does not follow our content guidelines. To continue publishing, please remove it or upload a different image.
