I lay silent. Why did I do that. Why did I say that. Because it's true you don't love her. I don't want to say that stuff. Tell you what I won't say that stuff! Wake up. Be you. Don't let that. Distract you. Don't listen to her! It want to...no I don't want to or need to. I want to be normal.
I run downstairs and hug mum. "I'm sorry mum."This is my final warning. Say it. And you will die. I will consume you. "I love you. Don't ever forget that mum."
She smiles at me. "I won't. Be yourself you can. Don't be like I was until I met Jim. Please."
I nod and pinky swear to stay 'alive' not 'dead and a robot'
But honestly I can't move on. You'll never be free Jessica Rose. We have a plan. Around mum be calm. Nice. Normal. And when we're alone. Cut. Again and again. I gulp. An awkward dinner again. "So..." Jim starts. "Your mother was saying..." see he doesn't love you. He doesn't understand. "I'm disappointed..." see he doesn't like you. He's going to give you up. "Find someone Help..." he starts. Say it. Go on! "I DON'T NEED HELP. JUST GET OFF MY CASE!" I yell at him as we finish our meal. "Hun..." mum starts. I glare at her. "DON'T YOU START. SHUT UP BOTH OF YOU!" I scream. As they talk to me. I storm off grabbing my phone bad and. Blade. I slam the door. As I'm running I slip into the woods crying. I climb a tree high enough. See. No one cares about Jessica Rose. It snarls at me. Whispering. They won't notice. Redo where you have already done. Not noticeable! I listen my he'd shaking uncontrollably. My phones ringing nonstop. Text come through "GET BACK HERE RIGHT NOW YOUNG LADY!" Jim ones from mum are kinder. Asking me if I want to come back and if I don't to come back before dark.
Jump again.Nothing happened last time did it? I stand up. Swaying back and forth. You're better than this. Don't. Please. I shake my head. Arms out ready. I lean forward slightly. Looking down. I shake my head just do it. No on cares. I shake my head again. I wouldn't. I couldn't.
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Jessica Rose -Janya Adopt (entering for wattys2016)
FanfictionHi I'm the kid you'd least expect to be adopted. No one really knows what happened to my parents they just showed up dead. The worst thing is I know how they died and why. And who killed them, I feel bad. They wanted to kill me but they took my pa...
