Lana and Thredson

Untitled chapter lol

He looked at me like he wanted to hurt me more than her.

"This is what you get from taking her away from me." He said to Lily. He's trying to make her feel guilty.

"NO WAIT please I'll do anything." I pleaded with tears dripping down my face.

"Shhhhhh!!" Baby it'll all be alright." He sounded very suductive.

"Don't call me baby." I said with a lot of attitude

He ignored what I said he lifted the knife over Lily's heart.

"You know you should stay away from things that aren't yours." He whispered in Lily's ear but it was loud enough for me to hear.

"NOO PLEASE!" I pleaded I was pretty much having a tantrum I was kicking and screaming.

"Baby stop, please we will be together again another day. I love you and remember I am always yours."

"I love you Lily."

Right when I said it he stabbed her in the heart with so much anger.

He then went to her stomach   I couldn't watch. I was screaming crying and eventually I blacked out.

She's actually gone.. I thought to myself the only person I had is now gone..

I woke up in the same bed.

I still felt nauseous and sick but that was not what I was thinking about.

What's the point of even living. She's gone. I've been raped no one wants a "used girl."

She's all that I've ever wanted. Why does everything I love get taken away from me?

Do I deserve it?

I couldn't bare it.

I look over to the left and found a night stand I opened the draw and found a razor.

I started to cut. My wrist, my legs and my stomach.

I needed relief.

The last time I had done this was when I was about 15 when my parents got divorced and when they found out I was a lesbian.

I felt the same way.

Like no one will ever love me again. Most importantly I felt used.

I just did not want to go on.

Blood was all over the bed though I did not care. It hurt a lot but it felt good.

Death was my only option now.

I want to be with Lily.

He suddenly walked in

His presence just made me sick.

"How ya doing Lana." He said in such a babyish voice

I stayed silent avoiding him. Even though I really had no choice but to talk to him. I mean I am here for a reason and I think it's because he wants me.