remember ♡ egobang

one

i slowly open my eyes, glaring at the sunlight piercing into them. i look around once they adjust, and it's the same white interior i've been staring at for days now.

"um...arin? i gotta take your vitals. sorry for waking you- it's protocol." the nurse gave me a small, apologetic smile as she got to work.

after she was gone, i was left to ponder the jumble of thoughts i was given a few days ago.

when i first came to, a group of people were scattered around the room. a girl with black hair was sleeping, holding hands with a girl with pink hair. both were in chairs. there was a guy with a beard, a pale guy, and a guy with puffy hair holding my hand.

once someone noticed my eyes were open, they were clustered around the hospital bed. there was a lot of chattering before beard guy spoke up and told them to calm down.

a lot happened that day.

for one, i found out my name was arin. and all of the people in the room were my friends. one was my boyfriend. and i had been in a car crash.

puffy hair guy left the room pretty quickly. he hasn't been back since. i feel bad- if he's my boyfriend, shouldn't i remember him?

it didn't help with the faces everyone made. everyone felt disappointed once they found out i didn't remember anything. i felt oddly guilty i didn't recognize any of them.

a few have been back since then. a new guy with grey hair came by with beard guy. even though all of their names were mentioned a few times, i find it hard to memorize them.

everything seems...hazy. i can't get anything straight. i keep mixing up the smallest of things. that's why i don't use their names- i'll just hopelessly mix them up and make myself more confused.

i sigh. the nurse left the curtains open. i would close them, but i can't get up without getting dizzy. i think someone said i had a concussion, along with amnesia. i'm not too sure.

i reach for the paper on the table beside my bed. when beard guy dropped by with grey haired guy, he left this. it has a description of everyone along with some random facts about each person.

someone thought it would be helpful, so at least when i get out of the hospital i know everyone a bit.

i've read over it a few times, and i'm starting to get their names down. i still don't trust myself to use their names.

i read over it again, because honestly i don't have much more to do. after a bit, i put it back. reading it makes me feel guilty for not knowing all this stuff already.

~*~

later, i'm woken up by a nurse again. vitals. it's really annoying, being poked and prodded at every few hours.

"do you know when i leave?" i didn't even know where i was going to after this, but anything is better than a hospital. it's extremely boring.

"in a day or so, i think. your vitals have been pretty stable."

"alright, thanks."

after she left, another person came in. the girl with black hair.

"hi, arin. did you get that letter from barry?" she sits down as she talks. it seems like she's the only one here.

"um, yeah," i pick it up. "it's right here."

"oh, that's good. how have you been feeling? do you...remember anything?" the last sentence came with hesitance and hope. i didn't want to disappoint her.

"i feel a little better," that was true. "i, um...i don't remember anything. i'm really sorry."

"there's no need to be sorry, arin. it's not your fault." she gives me a forced smile, her eyes slightly wet.

i look away.

"i know." i can't help but feel like it is.

she clears her throat before speaking again. "so, do you have any questions..? this is probably really confusing for you."

"yeah. it is. what are all of your names?"

"i'm suzy. the girl wth pink hair is holly, and..."

the questions go on for a while, before visiting hours are over. before she leaves, she tells me danny's the one who's picking me up tomorrow.

and just like that, she's gone. i have a lot more questions. i guess i'll have to ask dan tomorrow.