This is my Life

My Past

My father is going to come home tomorrow. I don't know what he is going to do this time. Last time he came back, he came home drunk from the airport at about noon. By that afternoon he had gotten more drunk and started shouting at my sister and mom.

Wait. Let's start from the beginning.

My name is Sophia Miller and I am 16 years old. Well Sophia isn't my real name but I want my identity to be a secret. I started writing this book as a place where i can tell all my secrets in anonymously. If you already got bored, I wouldn't blame you.

Let's see, ever since i was little, my parents have been fighting. Actually it more like one sided because my father always blamed my mom for his problems . My mom can't leave him because my mother's parents got her married to my father when she was 19. My mom never finished college so she couldn't get a job. She can't leave him because she had my sister at the age of 20 and me at 25, so she couldn't support us.

I know its very detailed but if you get bored, you can stop anytime.

So anyways my dad started a business before i was born and i think it started going well. My dad had a alcoholic problem though. I remember when i was little, some nights I would cry and pray that he won't hurt my mom.He used to get drunk some nights and i think he blamed his business problems on my mom and beat my mom.

This was when i was like 4 or 5 years old.

This isn't all of it but this is just a gist of the whole story.

Fast forward 10 years later.

My father's business kind of flourished. I am saying 'kind of' because my father had taken a lot of bank loans for the business and isn't paying it back. The business has a big name in the place he started. The loans started becoming heavier with time. Finally last year in October he sold the business after working for it for 15 years . Turns out the bank loan estimated almost a 100 million dollars. He finally payed off the debts with the money he got with selling the business.

About 6 months earlier, i found out my father has been seeing another woman.

My mom always knew he was a bad person but she couldn't leave because she can't support herself or me and my sister. So i guess you could say my mom stayed for the money.

My family is so messed up.