Dont Turn Your Back On Me (Denis Stoff Fanfiction)

Chapter 15

Hello peoples!! So in a few chapters I'm adding a new character and its Ashley_butler!!!! Haha soooo, today's song of the day is 'Better Off Dead' By Sleeping With Sirens!
There are multiple trigger parts in this chapter. THIS IS A WARNING!
And I'm sorry, but its a short chapter. :/

Denis
I woke up with Anastasia in my arms asleep.
She is getting better.
I smiled to myself.
I slowly got out of bed and went into the lounge
Ben was sitting there staring at the wall.
"Hey, man." I said.
He looked up.
"Hey." He put his head back to staring at the wall
What is going on?
I grabbed a monster and went outside beside the bus to get fresh air.
Anastasia
I woke up to Denis being gone.
I walked to the lounge hoping he was there but sadly, Ben was in there.
I uncomfortably walked to the fridge and grabbed a water.
I turned around and Ben was there.
I jumped and slowly walked away from him.
He grabbed my arm and pulled me to the back lounge.
"Ben let go!" I yelled.
I pulled and tugged but that didn't help at all.
He pushed me on the loveseat.
He sat next to me and my heart was beating fast.
What is he doing?
"We need to talk." He said.
I sighed.
"Ben, its okay, just leave me alone."
"No! Its not alright, I messed up and hurt you." He looked at me.
He looked so scared and hurt.
"Ben, I'm fine and your fine, can we just forget about it?" I asked.
"No! I almost raped you, its not okay, you where scared and not happy, I want to make up for it."
"Ben, listen, the only way you can make up for it is to forget it, okay?" I said.
"No! please, I want to make you something special or give you something special, to make sure we are still friends." He pleaded.
"Ben." I sighed.
He looked down.
"Fine."
I stood up and started to walk away but Ben grabbed my wrist and I tried to hide the pain.
He pulled me down and looked me in the eyes.
"Did you?" He asked.
I teared up.
"Because of me?" He teared up.
"No, not because of you, because of me." I replied.
He took my bracelets off and inspected my fresh scars that where placed by me.
"How was it you?" He questioned.
"I cause everyone pain." I said.
He looked up at me.
"You caused no pain to any of us."
I looked down as tears started to fall.
I hurried and put my bracelets back on and stood up.
"Please, promise me you will stop." Ben asked.
"Its not that easy." I turned to him.
"If I forget the other day, will you stop?"
"Ben, I will try."
I walked back to my bunk.
You dirty slut.
No! Why did you come back?! I thought you left!
Your not getting rid of me that easily.
Please go away! I don't need you!
Oh but you do.
No! I don't! You are sickening and have cause way more pain than my dad has!
Oh but was I really gone? Maybe I have been here the whole time watching your mistakes.
Please stop!
(A;N The black is a voice in Anastasia's head that she thought she got rid of a while ago.)
I don't want to.
Please?
Nope! I'm staying here.
"Leave me alone!" I screamed on accident.
I started to pull at my head like the first time I heard this voice.
(Flashback) When she started cutting*
I was sitting in my room after my beating.
I started to draw but my pencil broke and I grabbed a pencil sharpener.
Break it and use it on your skin.
Who are you?
I'm here to help you.
Why do I use it on my skin? Doesn't that hurt?
Yes but that's why you should use it. You deserve pain.
I started to rock back and forth pulling at my hair.
I decided to brake the pencil sharpener and take the blade out.
I put the blade to my arm and cut.
I cried at the pain I had endured.
That's right, you deserve this.
I cut again and again as blood poured out of my small arm.
Isn't that better? You deserved it.
It hurts and stings.
That's good, now you know better to cause pain and shit to your father now don't you. Every time you make a mistake, cut yourself, you here me?
Yes.
I pulled at my hair more then fell asleep crying.
(Flashback over)
I pulled and tugged at my hair as tears fell out of my eyes down to my pillow.
Why?
Because, you deserve pain and you don't deserve Denis, I bet he will leave you when you get to the Ukraine.
No! He loves me and I love him! Now shut the hell up and leave!
Does he really love you though?
Yes!
I tugged at my hair more.
Please?
Nope, I'm staying.
Your not real!
Oh but I am.
No! Your not! Go away! Stay away!
Love, I'm not leaving.
Don't fucking call me love! Only Denis can!
Love.
Fuck you! I hate you! You have caused enough fucking pain!
You deserve pain.
I know, stop reminding me.
But I want to make sure you know.
Let me sleep.
I closed my eyes and went to sleep before my mind made me go even more crazy.
Ben
After she left, I went to the front lounge and sat down.
I watched television and drank some cool aid.
Denis
I walked back on my bus and heard Anastasia scream.
I went to the bunk and listened to her.
She cried and sobbed.
"Leave me alone!" She yelled.
Then I heard her start crying and sobbing again.
I peeked and seen her tugging her hair.
After a while, she fell asleep and I climbed in with her and went to sleep myself.
I need to help her.
(Anastasia's dream)
I was 11.
I was currently sitting in my room writing in my journal.
A letter, to Blake.
Dear Blake,
I'm sorry, I'm so sorry.
I can't fight this war anymore.
Its eating me up inside.
My father wants me dead and I want him happy.
This is not goodbye forever, just until you reach where I am.
Please don't blame yourself, you did nothing but help
I just can't deal with the pain.
The voice in my head is haunting me and won't leave me be.
I have lost my fight but please don't lose yours.
I love you.
Love,
Anastasia
I had tears in my eyes and put the note on my desk and went to my bathroom.
I grabbed my blade and cut deeply up both my arms.
Blood started to cover the floor.
I became light headed.
Then I heard a cry from my room and the bathroom door opened.
Blake was there with the letter in hand.
She fell to her knees and started to cry.
She put rags on my arms and called the ambulance.
I felt tears going down my cheeks.
Good girl.
Die.
I hope your satisfied.
I'm delighted.
(Dream over)
I jumped up and seen that I was sweating and tears where falling down my cheeks.
Denis jumped up and wrapped himself around me.
"Its okay love, its okay." He soothed.
Then I noticed something.
Its night.
"Denis, did I miss your show?"
"Yeah, but that's okay, you didn't look so good and was caring a fever so we are heading to the airport and going to the Ukraine." Denis said
I could feel more tears fall down my cheeks.
I missed his last show.
Yeah because your a horrible person that ruins peoples lives.
"Shut up" I growled as I hit my head multiple times.
Denis grabbed my hands and looked me in the eyes.
"Who are you talking to, love?"
"N-N-No one." I stuttered.
You better not tell him about me, he will leave you.
"Are you sure?" Denis looked concerned.
"Yeah, I'm just fine." I laid back down.
God I'm an idiot.
Yes you are.
Denis cuddled beside me and fell asleep.
What if Denis does think I'm crazy?
He will.
Stop!
I pulled at my hair some more.
Cut some more, you deserve it.
No! I promised Ben and Denis.
Well Ben tried to rape you and Denis wasn't there to save you.
I don't care! I still love them.
That is why your a fuck up Anastasia, you love too much.
Maybe your right.
I'm always right.
But what if I'm tired of cutting?
I will do it.
Your not real.
But I am.

Okay! Don't yell or hate me please.
I thought I could make it 6000 words but I just couldn't because its currently 2:47 a.m and I'm tired so I'm gonna post this tomorrow at some time, I love the votes and reads, thank you so fucking much!
Now I'm thinking when its around Chapter 25 or so to end it and start a sequal but that's up to you, should I do a sequal??
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