Vontades Avulsas...

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I don't wanna be with you... I wanna be with someone.. Anyone... You might understood this or not.... The only thing is that I don't know what I'm felling about you.... And I don't have any courage to tell you cause I'm weak and I can't support any feeling... I don't know what I want. I don't know nothing about me... What's my name? I don't know.... I'm not the right person to answer any quest... Cause I'm confused...
I don't know what I exactly mean with this...
First I'm confused
Second I'm tired
Third I'm in pain
Fourth I'm without any interest about anything
Fifth I'm not felling any pleasure...
Sixth I can't sleep... I try, but I can't.... When I must do anything I just tired and I wanna sleep... After I go to bed I can't sleep...
Everything is Gray...
What's happening with me?
I don't know
I want to go to bed
I want to sleep forever...
Could I ?
I don't know
Now, I can understood Sylvia Plath...
And with her verses I finally this...
"Of a snuffed candle!
Love, love, the low smokes roll
From me like Isadora's scarves, I'm in a fright..."
This fever that doesn't go away... And this smile without  any emotion...