If Love Was A Drug

ELEVEN

KASH..

I sat around in my apartment mopping. I had a gallon of Oreo ice cream and i had a few more scoops to go. I missed Jayceon. We haven't spoken in seven days which felt like a year. Even though he was only my friend and i knew him for a short period of time, i grew close to him. I finally had someone who understood me and faced some of the same challenges that i did growing up. Now that he's gone, I'm back to the drawing board.

Jen had came over to keep me company. All she did was give me helpful advice and make me feel better. That's exactly what i needed.

"Screw Jayceon. Its plenty other guys out there. Don't narrow your vision to where you only see him. You'll find someone who's just as pure and wonderful as you, Kash. Cheer up." Jen said. I sucked up my tears and cleared my face. Maybe she was right.

"And give me this. Your ass probably done gained ten pounds off this." She said snatching the gallon away from me. I laughed as tears filled my eyes.

"I love you Jen. I swear you make me feel much better." I smiled as i hugged my best friend. I guess the importance of friends come into play at times like this.

"You know i got you girl." Jen laughed.

Knock, knock, knock

I looked towards the door as i heard knocks. "You expecting someone, Kash?" Jen said.

"That's probably the pizza guy. Get that for me. I'm not wearing a bra." I said. All i had on was an over sized guess hoodie and nike shorts. My hair was in a sloppy bun. I really didn't care to dress up. I guess that all comes along with depression.

Jen peeped out the peep hole then looked to me. "What's wrong? Open the door." I said. I was getting hungrier by the minute.

"Hmm, before i open it i think you should change and clean up." Jen said blankly. I twisted my lips up.

"Why I'm not worried about a pizza guy. Jen stop playing." I shouted. She shook her head.

"Its Jayceon." She said. My heart fell into my ass. What was he doing here? How did he even know that i lived here? I quickly jumped from and started grabbing the chip bags, soda cans and ice cream bucket from my table. I threw it all in the trash! I grabbed the blanket, stashed it in the hall closet and pulled the bun from my hair.

"Okay, open the door." I said as i ran my fingers through my hair.

And there stood Jayceon. He was even more handsome. I wanted to smile but i hid my emotions away.

Jen stood to the side as Jayceon walked in. He had flowers in his hand and a big box. What the hell. I said to myself inside my head.

"Slim before you say a word, let me do the talking." He interrupted. He handed me the sun flowers. I guess he remembered when i said that they were my favorite.

"I'm the most stubbornness nigga ever. It takes every thing in me to make me admit my wrong and apologize about it. But i was wrong. I should have been upfront with you. You deserved to know. All you did was be there for me when i was down. Hell, I'm still down. And with you being gone makes life..boring. What I'm trying to say is, will you be my girl Kash?"

I was in tears. Jayceon had pulled out a Tiffany & Co. necklace and i was blown away. He put it around my neck and i could feel myself getting emotional. He had really did all this for me.

"Yes, I'll be your girl Jayceon." I giggled. I pecked his lips and gave him a bear hug. This all felt unreal to me.

"Well since you're answer is yes, i got another gift for you." Jayceon picked up the box from the table and handed it to me.