Sweet sixteen in the magical world(watty's 2016)

Loneliness...

Love is not an apple pie..It is not really easy,specially when u fall down deep in it with nowhere to go..

Day by day I  was becoming more dull and lifeless.Each passing day was killing me inside and it felt like someone had sucked the life out of me..

I kept staring at my wrist day and night .the beautiful patterns kept reminding me of him..everything I  felt for him.
I knew he is there somewhere out in this world on the same planet,he is living there but I  had no way to get him,to go with him ,to bring him back in my life...
The only hope in me was that maybe after vacations he came back to school,and returned to me,but in my heart I  knew that was never going to happen,

I kept remembering each word that he spoke to me,the last day,.the day I  confessed my love and the day which had to be the most beautiful one in my life ..
And then,
It came to my mind,suddenly the newest thought.
Why did my marks turned to patterns,why...?
.was it because of his magic or because the marks were cursed...
I hurridely pulled up my slacks to see if my ankle marks had also changed ,but no..they appeared the same,that meant the curse had nothing to do with these patterns....something else was existing.unknown to me..

This thought made me go mad and mad...not only because he had gone leaving me in pain and with a secret undiscovered but the problem that I  could not ask anyone about it,people would think I  am mad,..
They will laugh at me and,will send me in a mental asylum..
This was becoming more irritating now...
And no sooner I  realised,that ..Lianda aerogus alador..my mother was buried with a big secret..
Greaattt,..now if she said these marks were curse.. Then..surely I  was growing up to be destructive and threat to the world...
I was not going to be good like ardan..I  could never belong with him...this is why he left me..

There was a world somewhere..existing..with the magical ones,the books of fairy tales was true,but the only bad news was I  was not the princess but the witch..

These were my day dreams..that I  used, to distract my mind from ardan..
The only pain at that time was losing ardan..only him.
I didn't cared if i was to grow and become an evil..or to destroy the world,but at that moment my own world had been destroyed..my life had left me.to starve and die...

Before ardan came my life was empty ,but I  managed that emptiness and had learnt to live with it,but after he left me,life was not just empty but it was depressing and taunting me with sarcasms,and it wanted me to die forever...

But somewhere I  knew his feelings were true,he will return,maybe not today,not tomorrow,not this year..maybe he will return after 10 years just for checking if I  was still alive or not.....my heart knew he will return..

And with this only ray of hope I  woke up each day waiting....