a dream come true

Finally an ending.

Okay so maybe you guys won't be happy. But there's always an ending to something, nothing lasts forever i have been writting this book since 2012 and now i am deciding to ending it.

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Things haven't been the same nothing has. When me and justin talk on the phone right now almost everytime it ends in an argument we dont say 'i love you' anymore, just allot has changed we only talk about alexander. I think we both know that the only thing that is holding us together is alexander.

If that's the case i don't want neither of us to be tied down. He will be coming any second, i think it's best if me and him had a straight to straight talk about this, because after all i'm not some type of person that just leaves another without even a peep i atleast give them a reason as to why and we have been together for a really long time we both owe it to ourselves.

"Mommy?". I look up to alexander and see his face, exactly his father's features, " come here baby, what's wrong?". He looks up at me and plants a kiss on my cheeks. I can't help but smile back at him "is daddy really coming today?" I smile a small smile and a slight nod.

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"Justin i think it's time we should talk".
Justin has been home for two hours now and i thought he should relax and unpack and spend sometime with alexander, until i drop the bomb on him.

" I know i wanted to talk to you also", okay so maybe he does have the same feelings as me maybe he does feel like this relationship has nothing going for it , "you know this is not going to be easy, you know how much i care about you. But lately we haven't been the same we fight all the time , we don't even say 'i love you' anymore , i just feel like if we both have drifted apart i don't like the sound of it, but it's the truth".

"I know, and i really did miss you guys,but are you trying to say you want a divorce?". Tears welling up in my eyes but somehow i still have the strenght to nod, there is really nothing we could do feelings start to fade.

"Okay, okay if that's what you want i'll get my things and start unpacking, but if you thought what i was going to tell you it had nothing to do with that, i was going to tell you maybe you and me could take a vacation get a babysitter for alexander, but you clearly said what you wanted i will leave in an hour, i'll take alexander with me this weekend since i haven't seen him in the longest i'll leave you alone". He kisses me in the forehead, walks to the closet.

I just sit there lettig everything sink in, it's nothing but moving forward we will be okay , maybe it was better for the three of us.

Or was it?

************** 5months later********

Me and alexander are sitting at the beach and he is playing in the sand. I am just thinking , justin and me went to court the weekend after our agreement of ending it, and we agreed whenever he wants to see alexander he could come, after all he was not a bad father at all, plus alexander loves him not seeing his dad would break his little heart which will break mine too seeing him like that.

'Mommy is it pretty?" I look up to see  the little sand castle he made "it's beautiful honey". I smile i love it when he is happy.

Yes i was right it's best for three of us . Also me and justin are doing just fine. Everything is great. Stuff like this happens all the time no one is forever that's what you learn over the years neither are the feelings.