a dream come true

HAPPY NEW YEARS!!!!

Whoo damm it's been a long time since i wrote a chapter, but it's not like anyone cares because i don't even get comments to keep on writing, any who i really don't give a flying fuck, i'm just writing this chapter for me because i'm bored, and there's nothing else to do in this shit hole that i call home, anyways whoever is reading i hope you get real entertained nah you probably won't but it was worth a try....

"Okay, bye Justin whatever i really don't care do what u want alexander is calling me, bye!". Ugh i can't stand him i thought he makes me want to gets my eyes out with a fork, it's been 10 months since he left on his tour and me and him haven't really been cooperating as much as we used to, we fight allot and i don't know i guess it's the distance anyways i'm not really focused on him right now, i'm focused on my little man, that probably needs his diaper changed.

'I'm coming baby, i'm coming', i pushed open the door to alexander's room, 'mommy, i did poo poo' i smiled at him 'you did what baby?' He giggles and says 'poo poo!', alexander has gotten very fascinated with that word it makes him giggle, and he puts this face that just melts me in the inside. 'Okay honey let's get u changed then', that was all i had to say for him to toss his jean shorts to the other side of the room and his shirt, i laughed 'okay then i guess you want a shower'.

After i took his diaper out and cleaned him with wipes, he got into his little tub playing with his favorite yellow truck toy car 'brummm, brumm' he imitated the sound of a motorcycles instead of a car and i jus couldn't correct him because his just so cute,
10 minutes later alexander was done and he was dried to the max and i put him his favorite iron man pajama's.
'You wanna watch a movie with mommy?' Alexander looked at me and nodded his head eagerly while smiling, 'okay you pick the movie and mommy will change to her pj's real quick' i gave him a kiss in the cheek and walked to my walk-in closet, i grabbed my black shorts and white tank top, threw my hair in a messy bun and looked at myself in the mirror, i took in my reflection and noticed the bags i had under my eyes and how life less i looked and All the weight i had been loosing i certainly did not look like me, i sighed and put my clothes on, turned the light off the bathroom and walked out.

'MOMMY,MOMMY ICE CREAM, ICR CREAM!' He screamed from jumping up and down my bed, i giggled and went downstairs to go grab his favorite ice cream ben and jerry's cookie dough, he will not take no other, i'm serious try and feed him any other ice cream he will kindly throw it at your face, i learned that the hard way.

Walking back upstairs i had this pain in my chest that i had to hold on the stairs railing and stop because it was just too much , i closed my eyes and tried to even my quick breaths, 1,2,3. When i knew it was getting better i made my way carefully up the stairs.
I really don't know what it is but i have been getting these chest pains for a while now, i went to the doctors and they ran some tests but there was nothing there.
'I'M BACK NOW WHAT MOVIE DID YOU CHOOSE?' Alexander looked at me and gave me an evil smirk 'insidious 2' i gave him a scowl ' alex, didn't i tell u that you couldn't watch those movies and so did daddy' he gave me a pout 'i know mommy but i like it' i couldn't everytime he gave me that pout i just couldn't resist ' okay fine you can watch it' he did this little happy dance and got comfortable in the bed and i gave him his ice cream his smile widened.

Through the movie alexander was trying to hide his little adorable face with his blanket, he quickly got up and turned off the T.V and looked at me with wide eyes ' i get it i'm swowy i won't wuatch anymore mwuvies like that evers again' he came to my side and snuggled with me 'mommy only wants the best for you'
Later on through the night alexander asked me 'mommy when is daddy coming home?' My eyes shot wide open and i swallowed and said the answer i always told him 'soon baby, soon' he smiled and drifted off to sleep.