THAT PERSON

Loving THAT PERSON

Why do I feel irritated? What is this prick that I feel I my chest? What’s this painful feeling? What is this feeling? Why do I feel jealous?

Then I stopped.

Jealous?

Then it hit me.

WHAT THE HELL?!?

I didn’t I know that I started falling in love deeper with THAT PERSON.

Ah, this is what they called LOVE. It feels good, sweet, very wonderful feeling yet it feels very PAINFUL.

“Elle ito nga pala si Rein, girlfriend ko” he said.

My world crushed, my colored dream became pitch black, and the beautiful garden became a dull, monotone place.

I feel crushed, devastated, and sad, also hurt but in many words that could describe what I feel at that time was PAIN.

PAIN.

PAIN.

PAIN.

A undeniably pain.

But I have to be happy with him, I don’t own him. He’s not mine at the first place. HE NEVER WAS and HE NEVER DID. That’s why I only have to be happy with him even if I feel like I’ll die.

“I’m happy for you.” I said, a lie that any people can say. I feel like my tears would fall from my eyes any time so I walk away.

“Alis na ako mukhang may date pa kayong dalawa eh” I said with a happy tone a thank God they only see is my back and waved a goodbye.

As I walk away further and further, tears fall from my eyes.

“ang sakit” I said. “ang sakit sakit” I said and pound my chest many times ignoring people looking at me.

Then I started running, running with no particular place to run into.

but

I didn’t know that THAT PERSON HAS ONLY little time to live.