Life. Life is our story. We live the plot, experience the death of characters, fight our conflicts. We all our own story, but what don't we have have? A title. We as humans don't have titles. Why should one need one? A title steers the course of the plot and humans don't like to be controlled. I don't like to be controlled. I am me. I am from my mom and my dad. Who are from my grandparents. Who are from my great-grandparents and the line goes on until the creation of us. All this time and we are still lacking our title. We are all our own story. We must all make our own title. We must be our own controllers.
When I was a little kid I went for a walk, I intended to walk as far as my mom would let me, all the way to the stop sign. I couldn't do it. I was scared, but because I didn't go all the way then I now can go as far as I want. And yet, even as I am older I still do not go all the way. I still do not know what stops me. Throughout my life I have begun to fear change. Change is inevitable. Change is life. I have begun to fear life itself.
During my years at school I was brought down for being different. Different was not the normal. Different was bad. Different was weird. Different caused pain. Being different turned me into something that was no longer the real me; a different me. Just as I was scared to walk I became afraid to learn, to read, to live. To fear life is to fear yourself. To fear yourself is to fear peers, coworkers, and family. Nothing is worse than to fear yourself.
Today I went for a walk. After so long I thought about going all the way to the stop sign. Human instincts may be calling for change, but I do not like change. Change may try to change me, but I am Broken. That is my title. I will fight change on going all the way. The twenty feet in between the stop sign and me will remain untouched. That has never changed in my years since the first walk towards my stop sign. My life is against change. Change is my life. I am against myself in all ways possible.
Though my life is against change I must change at some point. Change is inevitable. My title is no longer Broken. I am something other than that. I am the person who walked those 20 feet to my stop sign.
