Choosing Between Them

Where you been?

August POV

I've been waiting on Naomi for like an hour. I mean I'm trying to not to freak out like a nigga did last time because I'm not trying to get physical with her again. I love her, but sometimes she makes me so damn mad. After a few more minutes, Naomi came walking through the door. "Where you been?" I asked her calmly while she walked towards me with bags in her hands. "Shopping with Meghan babe." she said while kissing my lips. "Baby, I'm hungry, you've been gone too long." I said while she put her bags away. She chuckled. "Alright baby, wanna order from that resteraunt down town?" I nodded. "Get me steak and potatoes." I said while kissing her cheek. "Alright, I'll get chicken Alfredo." she walked into the kitchen to order the food and I walked upstairs. I looked through her bags, not to see what she bought, but to see where she actually been at. Her story checked out, I saw a hella lot of receipts from places she and Meghan only go. As I was rambling through her stuff her fucking purse fell, I picked all the unnecessary shit up she had in there, but there was a picture face down on the ground, I picked it up and saw it was one of those fucking ultrasound pictures. I flipped the fuck out. I rummaged  through more bags and found a fucking pregnancy test. I ran downstairs, and she was still ordering food.

I stood in the living room and waited abd she came out with a snile on her face. She cane close and pecked my lips. "They said thirty to fourty-five minutes babe." I nodded and pulled The picture and pregnancy test from behind my back. "What the he'll are these Naomi?" her eyes widened. "B-B-Baby I wanted to tell you." I slammed the shit down. "Tell me what!!! That you've been trying to get fucking pregnant, knowing damn well I ain't ready!!" she looked pissed off. "You know me a hella lot better than that!!!! I told you I got off birth control, but you never wanted to use condoms!!!" "Fuck that you did this shit on purpose!" "Why would I do something like this on purpose August?!?!" "I don't fucking know!" "Fuck you August, because it's been seven fucking years and you done been with all these hoes and I keep taking you back and all you do is fucking hurt me!!! You put your hands on me! And now your fucking telling me if I'm pregnant you don't want anything to do with the baby!!" "We ain't ready yet Naomi!!!" "YOUR NOT READY!! I've wanted to have your baby since our first year of dating and you just can't handle." I calmed down a little I didn't want her to start crying and shit because I can't handle when she cries.

"Baby, just this time. We can't have a baby right now. Just take care of it." She pushed me, knocking the breath out of me. "I hate you! You promised me I wouldn't have to kill one of our babies again!!" I sighed. Back when Na was in college and I was still hustling, we had already been with each other for two years, and so we moved in together. We were making love like every night so one thing led to another and she came up pregnant. She told me and I couldn't take it, so I left for a few days and made her deal with it on her own. When I came back I told her me or her wasn't ready for that commitment, and that just that once we needed to get rid of it, and that we needed to be focusing on getting out of the hood, and the next time it happens we'd be living good and we would keep it. I guess I'm not keeping the promise now.

"Na, please baby. I know I said what I said, but I can't right now. Next time." she shook her head. "You don't have to be in their life. Or mine." she ran upstairs crying. I followed after her trying yo talk some since into her but she wasn't listening, it was like she all of a sudden had this huge change if mind where she thinks she can be independent and doesn't need me. "Baby, chill out come on you know I love you and want to be with you." she shook her head while zipping her bags. "I know that but I can't be with a man that gets me pregnant and doesn't want out baby, the one HE made. I'm done August."