Poem Collection

My Bleeding Heart

I'm trying to remember the day

The day you became more than just a person

When you absorbed my whole being

Soon it wasn't about just me anymore

It was only you I saw

Only you I cared for

What happened to me

How were you able to change who I one was

I,the girl who cursed love

I,the girl who has so hallow 

So cold

I,the girl who built my walls up far too high for even the bravest of the brave to climb

I,the girl who had more insecurities than to count 

I,the girl who thought of herself as nothing

How were you able to save me from self-destruction?

I was so far gone

I didn't have anywhere to turn

But you stood there with your arms wide open

And you pulled me away from all harm

I don't know how you can manage

Both a life and disastrous me

Somehow you do

Yes, I'm sure as hell imperfect

But,still you stay with me

You don't care about looks

You don't care about the number on the scale

You only care for the real me

The completely scared out of her mind

Tries to be confident

Fucks up a lot

Wants to be perfect

Would rather stay home to read a book

You have seen every layer I hideaway from the public eye

And yet you still have not left 

 Thank You.

For now you aren't just a person to me

You are my home

The only place in the world where I feel safe is in your arms

To fall asleep,I imagine I am wrapped safely in your arms

You. You. You. You. You.

It's always just you

You simply don't get that

YOU SIMPLY DONT GET IT AT ALL

I COULD WRITE A THOUSAND WORDS

ALL POURING OUT MY FEELINGS

AND YOU STILL WOULDNT GET IT

I AM AFRAID TO LOSE YOU

STILL DO NOT GET IT

I KNOW YOU ARE THE ONE

FUCK I KNEW IT WAS YOU WHEN I FIRST LAID EYES ON YOU

YOU HAD MY WRAPPED AROUND YOUR FINGER BEFORE WE FIRST SPOKE

YOU ARE THE ONE

YET WHAT IF I LOSE YOU

IF I LOSE YOU I SHALL BE ALL ALONE

I WILL NOT GO THROUGH LIFE WITH ANYONE BUT YOU

AND THAT MY DARLING IS A FACT

STILL YOU DO NOT UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU

AND YOU NEVER WILL

BUT THATS OKAY

With every kiss

Every late night conversation

Every time I lose sleep just thinking of us

I will try to prove it to you

Fuck,

I would die for you

So. That just happened. I just wrote that. Oh well. It doesn't matter. I'm in a good mood but not in the right mindset. But that's alright. Just one self-destructive night. One time to make all the pain disappear. And the songs I listened to while writing this,I think you'll like it. The Light Behind Your Eyes and The World Is Ugly both by My Chemical Romance. Yes. I wrote this is a rush. Trembling fingertips and a fast beating heart with a now bleeding lip. Now ,that is poetic. Not this. But this is as if I cut my heart open for all to see how I care for him and the blood are the words I desire to say but never can. That's why it's called 'My Bleeding Heart'.