Life: changes & Mistakes

A little change?

Hayy guys....
I'm sorry....
I know this chapter is crap... Like really, but please don't stop reading... I promise it will get better..🙈

Bella's POV:

I woke up, being blinded by the sharp light of the sun, what is the sun actually shining in England for once?
I feel much better today and decided to go back to school.

"Hey Bella" Dani said who's waiting at the gate.
"Hey Dani!"

"Dani, I just need to grab my books in my locker, see you later."

Harry was standing in front of my locker when I got there, oh great!
"Harry, what do you want?"

"Well, hello to you too Bella, and I want you to accept my apology "
"uhm, what apology?"

"The one I made yesterday."
"uhm, no thank you Harry, now please, I have to get to class."

"Oh Bella, then I'll just carry on making your life hell."


                        LUNCH:           

At lunch, I wanted to sit at Dani again, but received a few glares so I decided to go to the library again.

"I just want to be good for once, I want to be a 'goody-goody', like that Bella girl in the 9th grade, that gets straight 8's" I heard some girls talking that walked by, were they talking about me?

Then I heard the bell and headed to Maths.

In Maths, Donavan tried to entertain the whole class, again!
But this time I had enough.
I got up from my chair."Donavan, please stop it, you're not entertaining anyone! And Dani, she doesn't like you!!! Now please just stop being childish cause you're doing nothing more than irritating me!!!"

"look How scared I am, Bella the virgin just stood up to me, what are you gonna do? Throw me with your straight A's?"

"well, my A's are straighter than you'll ever be"

"oooooooooohhhhhhh!!!!!!" the whole class cheered.

"oh yeah, I went there."

"Bella you're a Bitch! I hate you! I'm sorry we can't all be as smart ass as you!! I'm sorry we aren't all goody-goody's!! and I bet you're still be a virgin and will die as one, I bet you never even had a boyfriend!"
"Well, that's none of your business Donavan!!!!" That's when I had enough, I took the first thing that I could get what happened to be the table and threw it at him , and next a chair, that's when the teacher walked in.

"Both of you, principal's office now!!"

IN THE PRINCIPAL'S OFFICE:

"Well, could you please tell me, Bella, was it really necessary to do what you did?"the principal asked.
"He left me no choice, he made me mad! So mad!"
"Still Bella, it gave you no reason-"
"Fuck you Donavan, and Fuck you mr. Principal, fuck this whole school!!!!" I spattered.

"Bella, you're expelled from this school for 2 weeks"

I just left and started walking home.

"Mom!" I yelled, to check if she's home.
"Honey, why are you home so early?" she said as she reached the bottom of the staircase.
"Uhm, mom I got expelled."
"You what?"
"Mom, it's no that big of a deal, It's only 2 weeks and, it's because a boy in my class was looking for trouble, so I threw him with a table and a chair, and then I sweared at the principal. And besides mom, I don't want to be a "good girl" anymore, I don't wane get straight A's or anything, from now on, I'm the 'bad girl'"

"okay Honey"


I made a decision, I'm not the 'good girl' anymore, I'm gonna change.
I made a salon appointment, I'm gonna dye and cut my hair.


"Hey I am Bella, I phoned earlier to make an appointment"
"Oh yes, you can sit on this chair, and I'm Sarah by the way"
"Nice to meet you sarah" I said while sitin on the chair.

"okay, Bella now what do you want to do with your hair?"

"I want to dye it a bright red velvet cupcake color and then cut straight bangs that end right on my eyebrows ."
"wow, Bella I like your taste, now let us begin."

After about 2hours, Sarah is done with my hair, and I love it.

"Bella you look amazing, and here's my number, we can hang out sometimes, You're a great person."

Okay, next up, The tattoo& piercing parlour,

I went home right after, I got a cute little bow in my hip.

That night, I had a movie night with my mom, dad had to go to South Africa for work, so it's just us.

I woke up, with a loud bang, I got up and looked outside, I saw that the big tree outside the house fell down, cause there was too much snow on it.

I decided to go out for a bit, and go shopping, and went to my room and got dressed in: a Pink sweater that said: 'I love London', a white skirt and some grey boots that come till just under my knee(oh did I mention that I dress like that? Yes I was supposed to be the 'good girl' so that's all I have to wear, that's why I'm going shopping.
I got my money and got a cab and went to the mall, I stepped into the mall and the first shop I went into, happened to be Factorie, I didn't shop here before, I only saw that Dani did.

So I went and grabbed some combat boots, 2 pairs, brown and black, a black leather jacket, some black skinny jeans and some dark blue ones.

The next shop is: Cotton on, and there I got some long sleeved tops and some converse.

Next up is some boutique called: Annie's, I went in and bought a few dresses, the one is black and very short, it comes just on my tights, I like it, the other dress comes just above my knee and is red, the other one is turquoise and also like the red one, all of them are tight fitting.

Next up: Victoria's Secret, I got about 20 pairs of bra's and thongs, all different colors.

I end up, pushing a trolley with about 50 bags in it, okay, how am I gonna get this home?
Well, first I went to the malls bathroom, luckily this one is clean, but I changed into some black skinny jeans, black combat boots, a red t-shirt and my black leather jacket, when I got out of the bathroom, I bumped into Harry, he took all my bags and put them in his car, next he told me: "you look good,want to grab some food?"

"why are you being nice with me today?"
"You'll see."

We went to some fancy restaurant, Harry said he's sticking me, we got a back corner booth.

"Hi, I'm Tracy, and I'll be your waitress for today." Some fake blonde bimbo said, and tried to flirt with Harry, I just sat there, feeling awkward.
"I just want a chicken salad please, oh and some pepsi." I said to break the awkwardness
"I'll have the same as her" Harry said, she game him a wink and left.

After we got our food, I didn't say a word, was I jealous of her and Harry? Okey, yes I was, and from now on I will not let him bully me, this is gonna end now, It's been going on more than a year, and I can't do it anymore. Why does he always say mean stuff, why does he always hurt me???

Just as I felt the tears streaming down my face, I ran straight to the bathroom, I got in one stall and closed the door, I digged in my bag, looking for a razor, feeling the urge to cut.

I got it, rolled up my sleeves and started to cut, some deep cuts on my arms, after 2 minutes, my arms were covered in cuts, you can't even see skin anymore.

Harry's POV:

I don't know where she went, but I feel so bad, I have been making her life hell, for more than a year now, hurting her, saying stuff at her, and just hurting her, but the truth is just: I was just trying to get her attention. I got up and went to the direction of the bathroom, I think that's where she went.

Bella's POV:

I got out of the bathroom, and bumped into Harry, trying to ignore him."Bella, please, can't we just sit and talk about it?"
"what's there to talk about Harry? You wanted to ruin me, you Happy? You got what you wanted, congrats!!"

"Bella please just.. I'm begging you."
"no Harry, I don't want to talk to you, I never want to see you AGAIN!!!1 NEVER IN MY LIFE!!! I HATE YOU!! WHY CAN'T YOU JUST LEAVE ME, YOU KNOW WHAT??? I JUST DON'T WANNE LIVE ANYMORE! WHY DON'T YOU JUST KILL ME? IT WOULD BE LESS PAINFUL THAN THIS TORTURE!!!"I screamed at him.

That's when he started crying."Bella, look: I have been doing all this stuff, because I like you, and I'm just trying to get your attention!" he said, and I turned aroun, walking back to him."now please Bella, just come and sit with me."

I didn't say anything, just got at the seat and sat down.

"Bella, look I'm really sorry! I didn't want it to get this far, really not I promise I never meant it!"
"Well Harry you hurt me-"I stopped when the bimbo interrupted me:
"Is everything fine, do you want another drink?" she asked, leaning to Harry, so that he could see her cleavage.
"No thanks" Harry said winking at her and then smiling
" oh please, are you serious? You told me that you are sorry just now, and that you 'like me' but then again you go and look at that bibmo, she wants your attention Harry, I don't appreciate you flirting back with her Harry."

"Bella, but you don't like me, why can't I flirt with her?"

'it's just rude Harry,"

"okay, Bella, I'm sorry I promise, and I'll try making everything up to you, Anabella Delport, I am in love with you! And I would do everything I can to protect you as long as I live from this day on."

"wow, Harry, I'm surprised and choked by your words, but how will you make it up to me?"
"I'll just protect you, and make sure no-one gets near you."

We got the bill and paid I wrote on the part that said: tip for the waitress :

"Here's a few tips for you:
1. Wear a shirt that doesn't expose your boobs, they might pop out
2. You are not that pretty
3. And last: Harry doesn't like you!

We left and Harry held the car door for me and closed it after I got in.

After a bit of a drive, I start to get bored and getting warm in the car and rolled up my sleeves.
"Bella, uhm what's that on your arms?" I forgot about that. Oops
"Uhm, I started when you started to make my life hell"

"Bella, I am so sorry, please stop, I promise I won't do it anymore. I love you so much and will make it up to you, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH  BELLA!"
"Well I love you too Harry."

We stopped at my house " thanks Harry"
"Can't I meet your mum?"
"She's not home, I'm alone, she had to go to south Africa, my dad went about 2 days ago, she went today, for business."
"I'm not letting you stay alone Bella."


"well, okay then Harry."

"Thanks Bella."
I unlocked the door and Harry carried my bags up to my room while I went to the kitchen to get us some juice.

We sat on the couch and watched some movies.
"Harry, what do you want for dinner?"
"I could order some takeout Bella?"

"uhm, okay, Chinese?"
"okay Bella."

LATER THAT EVENING:

We sat on the couch, watching movies. I made Harry watch The Fault in Our Stars with me. He came and sat right next to me, so I put my head on his lap, getting comfy.