I am scared. I'm scared of going out, thinking that people can see that I'm not straight. I'm scared because someone has killed 50 people that were part of the LGBTQ+ community and what the US government thinks about is the origins of the man, or the nationality of the people that were murdered; they don't care that this tragedy happened in a supposedly 'safe' environment for the LGBTQ+ community. I'm scared because I'm young and my plans of future included going to Orlando sometime or actually living in America. I'm scared, because one of my friends is going to the New York Pride Parade and I don't want her to get hurt. I'm scared of the people who are going to govern in the USA sooner than later. I'm scared of the people who own and defend guns, because I've never hold one and now I don't want to. I'm scared -terrified, actually- of not being able to live my own live because I'm pansexual, and that means I'm not straight, and that means I'm part of the LGBTQ+ community, and, sadly, that means that there are people who want to kill me. I'm scared, but I'm also angry.
I'm angry because I feel useless. Because I live so far away from where the attack happened and I can't do anything to help them. I'm angry at the people who say "Praying for them" but in the back of their minds they think 'Those faggots deserved it'. I'm angry because some people don't care, and they'll forget this in a few days just for the reason that it has nothing to do with them. But it does. Every single person that was killed was human, believe it or not, yes; the LGBTQ+ community is human (we are NOT unicorns, or any other fantastic creature). In the end, we are all humans; we are all the same, but that something that the most powerful type of humans in the world (which is completely stupid that something like this is true) is starting to comprehend now. And even in these days, in the 21st Century, some white straight men have more power than anybody who doesn't fit in these characteristics; in fact, they even make fun of and treat as inferior anybody who isn't like them. And this makes me angry.
I am angry, and I am scared and, right now, I'm going to translate this thing I've written to Spanish, and I wish I knew more languages to translate this, because is something that I want the world to know. I want them to know that people are scared and angry, because there is no way I'm the only one who feels like this. But I'm still scared.
