Ammy's Diary

Chapter 4

I never felt this kinda extreme disgusted in my whole freaking life .the man I dashed with my metal crap 4 days ago , whom I called MCP this morning , whom I hated hardly from bottom of all my organs for making me go through all this ,was the one who can  help me stay in my dream world.
If I would have been in his shoes ,I would have never ever helped me . why will he ?  Shasha Interrupted my freaked out thoughts ," this is really yum, u should definitely try one ."she said in disturbed voice as her mouth was stuffed with double ham & cheese burger . " Not in mood now , but donno will ever again get a chance to taste any of that " I uttered with pale face.
" hey , you are not gonna go anywhere . it's just a silly problem ,we'll sort it out . we have much more time & many more burgers left to enjoy ,got it"
Shasha said still her mouth stuffed . " I'll call dad and let him know about all this mess.I donno
How he'll react." I said unzipping my bag . at that moment buzz arrived with some papers in her hand. she curled all those to form a thick ruler . she was breathing high as if she stepped all stairs of building and came back .
"Where were you , hanging out with your boyfriend or something ? " shasha exclaimed in a bitchy manner.
"Boyfriend !!!" I uttered in reflex
" he is just my friend , you bitch don't lie " she said in defense and banged shasha with paper ruler on her head . 
" while you were crying on your miserable situation and you are stuffing your bitch hole with that cheesy shit , I was finding a way out ." she said pointing at both of us .
"How dare you said that to me , you ass " said shasha in anger .while the both were arguing and abusing each other
He entered .he carried the same musical symbolic papers with him. it was like a silent chill ran thought everyone's spine .buzz stopped & started staring towards him. many students wished him , he didn't uttered anything. he just nodded in response . in spite of all the mess he created & all the fuss I'm in just coz of him, he still seemed to be the most mesmerizing creature to me . he was impossible to ignore.
His charm was really, really infective . all girls were crazily checking him out . nothing bothered him . his head buried in those pages he walked straight towards the table in extreme corner. He pulled the chair with one hald , faced it towards the wall and settled.
"He's your man " buzz stated.
"Whaaaat?" I groaned in no time .
" I mean , he's the one . 'Dayyan rashid Mirza' lead member of student's council and chief association committee . Head boy of college and CR of his batch from consequent 4 Years .
Good in studies and excellent in music . all time winner of all singing competitions held intra and inter college . perfectly specialized in guitar and sometimes even plays piano.
State level football player  and  most favorite student of all the departments .the common topic for all boys to be jealous and for girls the most eligible bachelor of college . heartthrob of almost every girl present here. he is a silent hero , he don't speak much , he don't have many friends . just one , you remember zohair afnan he's his only pal. Zohair,  son of Dr. Hashim afnan. He lives in malhar streets as well . just 4 house away from yours ."
"Yes I know " I said .
Then she continued her buzzing " they behave as one soul reciding  in 2 bodies . girls said he left playing football something 2years ago , due to accidental death of his father and his twin brother . some say he's married , some say he's engaged , some say his wife died,
Some say he's single but no one knows the real story behind that
Intense face . "
" can you please pause , who care who's he ? , how many trophies he achieved ? Or how may female followers he have ?
My problem is still the same ."
I interrupted her .
" look at him , he's soo  sweet . he'll definitely help you " shasha
Whispered .
"

his dad was one of the reputed lecturer's of our college ." she started again .
" can you please just stop talking about him . where the hell you got all this information about him ." I yelled .
" it's not hard to know about him , just ask anyone . he's the hottest topic here . everybody knows everything , but it's kinda no one knows anything about him .he's a mystery everyone tries to entangle . he kind of created walls around him , no one can enter . many dared but failed . some say he's most kind hearted man , some say he's basterd  . some praise him , some Deny , some envy him but he's the only one everybody talks about ." she said in one breath and inhaled lots of 02 .
"You found out every thing rather that my way out , you detective ".I muttered .
" damm , he's only the way out "
She answered .
All three of us was silent for a minute then shasha exclaimed suddenly , " hey detective answer me one thing , do you even know which brand of underwear he wears ".and she started giggling .
" No one knows that , he never let anyone there . many like you are dying to know that too ."
She answered smiling.
" can u both please stop all that . you cheapsters , I'm in such a mess and you both wanna know his underwear brand " I yelled in frustration .
" you calm down , what's a big deal . we just have to explain our problem to him . he'll manage everything ." buzz advised.
" he'll never find a way out for me . in morning I ... I.... I.... Scolded him sooo much "I said with hesitation .
" what the hell..... Why did you do so ? " they both asked .
" it was not my fault . I was walking peeping back in my bag , I stabbed him . I was on the ground again & he said that I donno how to walk . then I lost my mind and uttered rubbish stuff. I even called him MCP ".
" you dumb ass why will he help you now . you idiot ." buzz shouted on me.
" it was his fault too " I offended .
" who Care's whose fault was that . you're in a big trouble girl "
While our conversation was going on he was having his lunch
Nothing was visible what was he eating . he finished it and left his seat for washing hands . while retuning he caught us looking at him .his eyes blank , just staring into my troubled eyes . I just diverted my vision and ignored him . he hanged his guitar on right shoulder , buried in those pages he left .
" let's talk to him " buzz suggested . " I can't . he'll.......... I donno ......." I mumbled .
" you just stand , I'll talk . kk"
" hmmmmm" I answered .
The peon returned and started assembling his lunch box . buzz called him and asked , " where can we meet him"
" he's gone for accounts lecture . you can meet him after an hour in music room . " he said and got back ." let check out music room  we can wait for him there" shasha said .
" hell to wait for him , I wanna go to washroom first " I said exhausted .
We stepped up two floors to get to washroom . I unrapped my stool and washed my face . cold water felt relieving . my mind was jumbled with thoughts . I was just praying that I don't wanna leave . I tied my hair in a pony and wore my stole leaving my face uncovered . after we all were done we left for music room .
It was on 3rd floor . a big room with pure white walls . hundreds of musical symbols painted  black . instruments kept in a corner of room . chairs arranged to sit during lecture hours . it was a big room without windows . just one additional door on opposite to entrance .
" what's that door for ?" Shasha asked . " bathroom or store room something " buzz answered .
" its a beautiful place. so calm , so silent , just music . I can sit hours here ." I said after a while .
" what happened in the morning , can you explain me all that shit " buzz asked .
" it was all bloody mess , just don't remind me ever that again" I shrugged
" don't act over smart , just say it " shasha taunted .
" we both stabbed each other and we both yelled at each other nothing more . he acted as if it was all my fault , it was  his equally .bloody rascal said that 'girls can't drive I knew that , I didn't knew that they can't even walk . ' if he knew how to walk , he should have walked away .
Even on the first day , just coz of him I got 4 stitches . it still hurts .
My elbow look at it , all ruined .
Even at that time  he behaved as if it was my fault , bloody coward . he didn't even apologized for that . and now after all this he didn't rest I donno what problem does he have with me . I'll be out of college coz of him . I was late for procedure coz I was in bed  due to his mercy . he thinks he's a sttud , he's head boy so he can do anything ............." While I was screaming his praises somebody unlocked the door opposite to entrance . hearing that I stopped my screaming . somebody opened a door little and complained ," can you go out in ground and shout out loud , I'm busy doing sumthing  really important ". The voice spanked my eardrums . it was some one
I have heard before .
" it's him " I whispered .
" who ? " they both replied .
" the head boy " I said hitting my forehead with my palm .
" how do you know " shasha asked . " I just know " I replied tensed .  " you're gone " shasha threatened me .
" can we please meet Mr Dayyan Mirza . it's really important ." buzz asked the voice .
" yes I heard how important is that ." he replied suddenly .
" are you Mr Dayyan , that peon said you'll be in lecture now ." buzz asked . " thank god I was here  or else I would have lost this amazing chance of hearing my good deeds by myself ."he teased .
" do hell With me "  I banged the wall . " I'm going , I'm going..... " I said & started walking back .
Buzz held my hand and pulled me back . he came out with same pages in his hand .
" what ? " he said shifting his neck to right . I was standing behind buzz as a kid hiding ,as if he'll not notice me.
" there's a big problem with us . we have been late for the admission procedures and they say that , seat will be allotted to someone from waiting list . " buzz tried to explain him.
" late , all three of you ? " he asked  trying to see me behind buzz . " No , only her's " shasha pointed at me .
Buzz held my hand and pushed me front . he was Still staring with his deep brown eyes .
I pushed a stand of hair behind my ear with my index finger  and checked the Stoll's on place .I was looking straight down in the flooring .
He was scanning me from top to bottom as if I'm a lamb & he's the lion . " why late ? " he asked inspite of knowing all the reasons .
  " I didn't knew anything about the notice .I didn't attend college I was not well ." I Answered confidentially .
" it'll be done " he said and turned to go back in the room .
" what ? " I uttered in reflex .
" you can't hear or wanna listen again . " he muttered in anger .
" means I'll get my seat . " I asked in hesitation .
" yes " he said and got in .
I was totally disturbed . "a minute ago I was abusing him he listened all that , and wanna help me ?" I asked both of them .
While all 3 of us were leaving with head full of confusion he called from back , " I'll need a written application  that you were not well and all that stuff ,
With a medical certificate ."
" write it now and give it to me " he added .We turned . " you can sit in and write " he said again .
" we'll wait " buzz said .
I pushed the door and stepped in . it was a small room totally messed  up . walls covered with musical symbols and phrases .he was sitting on a chair with a guitar in his lap . his legs crossed , sleeves folded , hair all undone .table was fully covered with those pages with musical symbols .  I sat on a chair  kept in a corner unzipped my bag , picked out my pen and book and started to write .
" I want your medical reports too"  he said lifting his head up .
" that's not with me now , I'll call home and ask dad to bring it ".
I exclaimed slowly .
I slipped my Hand in my bag to search my cell . I checked every pocket twice then thrice it was no where.
" where the hell , its gone " I uttered slowly . he kept his guitar aside . rested his face on his hand and started staring at me .
It seemed like he enjoyed seeing me panicking. After a while he stood up and pulled out something from his pocket and kept it on table in front of me .
" its mine ? " I exclaimed in confusion .
It was my cell . how the hell it went there . with lots of questions in my expressions I stared at him .
" you was so busy abusing me that you left it on road " . he said with a little curve at corner of his lips.
I was embarrassed ,
" I.......mmmmmm....thank u "
I picked up my mob and got out to call dad .
When I returned he was playing something on his guitar with his eyes closed . his beautiful fingers striking those sharp strings  released breathtaking melody . it felt heavenly . I just wanted to sit in front of him and listen that forever .  coming back from imagination I got back to my seat and continued writing that application . that music distracted me totally , I was unable to  concentrate . I completed it some how and kept it on table .
He picked it up and started reading . still staring on application he asked , " name?"
" simrah jaweed ansari ". I responded sincerely .
" science student ? " he asked again .
" yes " I answered .
He was like about to ask something when my cell rang
" excuse me " I said and got out of room . it was dad's call . he was on entrance gate . I asked him to wait and I send buzz to bring my documents . while the time I was out I heard a lite voice of his guitar . buzz arrived in about 10 minutes . I entered to room again with documents .
Mean while his  mob rang , he got up pulled out the cell , with his cell something just slipped out of his pocket . it was shiny
Full of stars and pearls . it was a bracelet just like I have . as he saw it fall , he suddenly bend and grabbed it . he slipped it back into his pocket . his reaction depicted something was wrong . I was damm sure that was mine .
" leave it on table and go " he said looking at his mob . he knew he was caught . his eyes were evidence of his deed .
I was confused , donno how to react .
" it will be done " . he said again
I dumped that documents on table . " thanks " I said harshly and left .
As I was out I unzipped my bag and started searching for my bracelet .
" what happened in ? What are you doing ? " shasha asked .
" what he said ? " buzz questioned .
I was still busy searching . it was not in , then where did it go .
" what ? " buzz asked again .
" my bracelet , it's not in ". I groaned .
" you must have forgot it at home , chill " shasha explained me .
" let's go , your dad's waiting " buzz reminded .
I zipped my bag & we left for home . the room was left silent just with Dayyan Mirza and his mysteries .we all were silent all the way .
I waved both of them bye and got in the car .
" how was the day ? " dad asked with a smiling face .
" plz don't ask that " I answered in tried voice .
" what's wrong , all OK na ? " he exclaimed in concern .
" long story , I don't have enough energy to explain now . after dinner ".
I started staring out of the window with blank face and million of questions unanswered .
Who was he? Why did he helped me ? What was my mob doing in his pocket ? Was that my bracelet ? Numerous questions with no answer . buzz was right he was a entangled mystery . if that was my bracelet then why didn't he returned it to me .
He left me with
Millions of thoughts
Thousands of feelings
Hundreds of questions
But just one name
Dayyan Mirza .