The Way

15. Reunited

        It has been 6 months since I left London, My life has gone down hill. Cutting, Not eating, Trying to kill myself, being depressed, and all my disorders came back. For about 2 months I was in a Hospital center to help me with my problems, that wasn't my first time being in one of those. When I was in 8th grade which I was 13 at that time. It was quite peaceful, I got my mind off everything I mean everything, that place really helped me this time. Last time when I was 13 and went it really didn't help me at all because I got out of real school and went to online school. In high school I went to a real school I really didn't want to, but it wasn't how I thought it was gonna be. Today the month is March and my dad's birthday but I don't think I will be going to see him today, because Valerie and Harry are coming over. Fianlly. I am no longer a teen anymore that's right I'm 21 fucking years old and I haven't done anything with my life. Sadly. When I left London, I kept talking to the boys but not everyday it was more like 1 time out of the week, Month. My brother Frankie came back home for he could ruin his fucking life because he never listens to me. No one listens to me. 

       On the day I left Niall was awake but he didn't know I was leaving, he thought I was just going down stairs. So when he read the note, he told Valerie that he's not going to make it through life without me. Which I regret of doing because I heard what he has been doing. the said he tried killing himself and he had to live with Zayn for he can make sure Niall doesn't do anything bad. 

        I was sitting in my living room, yes my living room in my aparment. I was sipping on my hot tea and watching the news. I wasn't paying attention to the TV so I  just turned it off and went to my room and got on the computer. 

  About half an hour later doing absolutly nothing, I heard the door bell ring but I was to lazy to get it. It kept ringing over and over. I got up from my bed and slowly walked to the door.

"WHAT!!! IM TRYING TO SLEEP!" I yelled behind the door because there was no peep hole and I didn't want to open it to find a kidnapper but I knew exactly who it was. 

"U.P.S" a soft voice said well what I heard it was soft, I opened the door and look who it is. Harry, and Valerie. 

"HARRY!" I yelled and jumped on him, giving him a big hug about to cry. 

"I missed you so much" Harry whispered in my ear and kissed my cheek, I let go of him and hugged Valerie. 

"Valley, your finally here" I said, lowly and laughed at how she said when I first left she would come and visit me soon which means 6 months later. 

"Yes sorry but now the tour is in AZ so hey why not chill with you." Valerie laughed and let go off me and I just nodded. "Come in guys" I motioned them to come. 

"So how's everyth-" Harry stopped talking and was staring at my freshly cuts I did on my arm. shit I forgot I did that. I slowly put my hand behind my back. 

"Um... Harry what's wrong?" Valerie looked at Harry and rubbed his arm, all he did was nod his head.

         We all sat and talked in the living room for about 4 hours just catching up and of course I didn't say anything about myself just how my life went down hill. All there lives were perfect, it was like they were running in a meadow full of flowers and butterflies. Except the part were they said they didn't feel the same because I wasn't there. 

"Yeah, I mean Niall he doesn't even talk to us or go to parties anymore. He just doesn't want to see us. Also at the concerts he doesn't even laugh at Louis anymore." Valerie sighed and hugged me. Man I wish I could just hug Niall right now wait till Friday, and tell him everythings gonna be alright but I can't do that because nothing isn't gonna be alright. By that I mean It's not because I don't want to go back to London well I do but then I don't.