Save Our Heavy Dirty Souls

Chapter 5~ What I wanna save, I'll kill.

~Akira's P.Ø.V~
I wake up surrounded by Domo and Josh, I can here Tyler mumbling nervously. "What happened?" I ask, attempting to sit up but pain shoots through me causing me to groan. I hear the door open and close. "Tyler.... He lost it." Josh says, glancing at the door, Tyler must've went out. "What was that about anyway? He almost killed her." Domo says. Josh takes a deep breath and sighs. "I'm only allowed to tell you so much, but I'll tell you what I can." Josh says, Domo nods as I attempt to sit up again and this time I succeed. "Tyler isn't.... Stable, I should say. He has this... This other part to him. Tyler calls him Blurryface. Blurryface is triggered when different things occur. Tyler can only hold him back for so long before Blurryface takes over." Josh sits down by Domo. "The doctors don't understand it... Tyler described it as Blurryface holding him hostage and forcing him to watch all the horrible things Blurry does." Josh says. "Why where you playing House Of Gold?" Domo asks. "House Of Gold is a very.... Deep song. If Blurry takes over and that song is played it gives Tyler memories, and it brings back his humanity a little at a time, which weakens Blurry enough for Tyler to take back over." Josh says. Domo looks down, "Poor thing..." Josh nods a little. "Why did he attack me though?" I ask, my voice raspy. "I don't know.... Only a few things trigger Blurryface that I know of. If someone Tyler cares about is hurt, it triggers Blurryface. if Tyler gets too angry, it triggers Blurryface. If Stressed Out plays, it triggers Blurryface. If Tyler loses motivation to do anything Blurryface takes over and I'm not sure any of those things happened." Josh says. "Where do you think Tyler went?" I ask. Domo looks at me. "You don't plan on talking to him after that do you?" Domo asks. I stay quiet for a moment and then I shake my head. "He probably went back to our place...." Josh says. I nod slowly. "I'm gonna go call Tyler." Josh says, getting up. Josh walks to the bathroom and he closes and locks the door. "I wanna know what they talk about...." I say. "What?! We can't do that!" Domo whisper yells at me. "Yes we can. I wanna know what's going on." I say, getting up and walking towards the bathroom. Domo groans and follows me quietly. "Tyler we need to tell them..." Josh says, hushed. "No." it appears Josh has Tyler on speakerphone. "Tyler we either tell them or we leave and spare them the pain of finding out the hard way." Josh says, his voice stern. In turn Tyler's voice is even more stern, "Then say your goodbyes, I'm not dying because you're in love." Tyler hangs up and it sounds like Josh throws his phone. Domo and I rush back to the couch quickly as the bathroom door unlocks. We're already on the couch by the time Josh comes out of the bathroom. "How do I tell you guys this will be the last time you guys see Tyler and I?" I just sit in shock.

~Domo's P.O.V~ (TRIGGER WARNING; SUICIDE ATTEMPT)

I sat in shock. "What?! NO!" I said with tears in my eyes. This can't be real. We've only known each other for a short while! "I'm Sorry, love. We have too.." Josh trailed off. I blushed at the nickname Joshua had just gave me. Did he like me too? All these questions ran through my head. The voices came out. "It's all your fault.", "You can't ever be happy." " why are you such a Fuck Up?" "You mistake! LOOK WHAT YOU'VE DONE!" That last one caused me to hold my head and scream. Josh immediantly tried to hug me and calm me down and so did Akira. " nO! BACK AWAY PLEASE!!" I begged. I begged and begged but they still hugged me and tried to comfort me. I ended up getting up and running as fast as I could. "You should just end you're life" the voices said. So I decided to loose my battle and ran up stairs grabbed some ABILIFY pills and shoved them in my pocket. I made sure to lock the door, and grabbed my note pad and pen. I started moving toward the window when I heard banging upon my wooden white door that stood out in the black room. I quickly made my escape just as the door busted open.I ran as fast as I could to the hardware store with my notepad in my back pocket. After I bought the rope I headed to the woods. "Look like its time to end this pain." I say as I look at my wrist. Every scar. Everytime I was in absolute pain. Every chance I took to end my life. I tied the rope around the tree limb and my neck. I found an old tree house that had a stool just tall enough to reach where the rope would strangle me. (yet). I took a hand full of 4 pills. Then 6 more. Then 10 more. After I took the pills I had began writing my note. "Akira, just know I love you so much. You are my best friend and I don't know what I would do without you. Please don't take this the wrong way. This wasn't about you. This was about myself. My demons had finally won. I couldn't take the pain anymore. Just know I'm at peace now. I'm so sorry, sister. I love you. <3. "

I folded the note and put it in an envelope and stuck it to the tree, in a part where the wood was sticking out. Next is.. Josh and Tyler..

"This letter will be two part since I only had two peices of notepad paper left.

Josh, I'm so sorry I had to leave you like this. I couldn't handle life, stress, or any type of pressure anymore. The voices at gotten to me, again. I'm so sorry josh. Just know that I've always really liked you. Twenty one pilots saved my life. Literally. But no one can anymore. I love you. Goodbye, josh.

Tyler, I haven't known you long. Just know you were like a big brother to me and I love you for sticking by me through everything so far. I know this letter is short"

I began feeling dizzy by this point, but I continued to battle on.

"and I wanna apologize for that. I just couldn't fight my demons any longer. Again, I'm so sorry.. I love you Guys. Stay strong. I'll be watching over you all.". As I pinned the last letter to the tree, I heard footsteps and my name being called. Quickly I scurried up to the rope with it around my neck, and kicked the stool as soon as I seen Akira, Josh, and Tyler. Everything started to slowly go black as I felt the oxygen leave my body, and a burning sensation took over.