Food For Thought

A Lifelong Romance-1

A Lifelong Romance

Shit i am so badly screwed today. She is going to be so mad at me,its obvious.This is me.I have the nicest,ok I am not bragging but yes a pretty and ocassionally sweet girlfriend,but i managed being late the last three times that we've met. She wouldnt really say anything but I like to panic.

Meera.My girlfriend of five years. We were college best friends and more often then never how it happens,love had to follow.We are both settled with a job now, so we actually were supposed to be discussing 'our wedding',infact,discuss how can we convince everyone to get us married.

I knew her just right,now she was used to my being late but she never let it go,she would give me tiny insignificant punishments,to prove that i am wrong.And so that i dont take her for a ride later.

Meera was different.She wasnt amazingly beautiful or highly talented ,she was just different.Even without a striking characteristic,she shines like a gem amongst stones.I was madly in love with her.

"Are you sure its the right time to talk?",she asked me.

"ofcourse,see we have nothing to wait for,we are both set with our careers,been in love for 5 years,and surprisingly dont even have an issue with the religion or caste.Life is perfect baby."

She looked around and then hitting her head on the table lightly she said,"you dont understand,its weird to talk your parents about your own wedding! what do i say? what if they dont agree?"

"why are you so worried? see i think you convince your mom,then mom can convince dad,if he doesnt agree,call me,I'll convince my parents and then they could come and convince your dad! Wow ! Isnt this too much convincing?"

"Dont look at me,i dont understand what you talk,cutting it short you think i should talk today?"

"yes i think today is a good day.",

"Why are you behaving so....Silly today..wait are you trying to cover up for something?"

"Uhh...No.Why will i Meera? your..probably thinking too much..."

"well thanks for the confirmation that,am right..Is that a new watch?",she she held my hand and analysised the watch and then looked at me for an explaination.

"Someone didnt like leather band watches? Right? What are you upto?"

I was caught.Today i did something she didnt approve of,but something i always wanted to. I remove my watch and showed off,the tattoo on my wrist it was her name.

"are you stupid? You really think this could make me happy??"

"Its not to make you happy,i know you'll hate it that's exactly why,i chose to hide it,Its for me.I always wanted one,I went to the tattoo parlour,i asked him what do people get tattoed the most he said,whatever they love the most,and i thought it was ideal,I love you the most.You have to agree it looks good?"

"Its disgusting",she said and started walking out of the café,I ran behind her,and when i held her tight by her hand and turned her i saw her crying.

"It doesnt hurt trust me! I am fine",i said and wiped her tears and kissed her on her cheeks,she pushed me off,

"Do you even know what this means???"

"Its a tattoo! What could it possibly mean?"

"If we dont get married? do you have any idea what would you do about this?"

"why will we not get married baby,ofcourse we will,and if i dont marry you,i still will have this on me,Till the day i die! I promise"

"You are stupid! No girl will accept you with someone elses name on your hand!"

"Exactly...so i'll be rejected..And i wouldnt get married.But what is your problem why can you not just focus on the convincing?"

"Right!",she wiped her tears and walked to the road. "Ok ok! I am sorry,i did thd stupidest thing ever,it cant be undone so kindly bear with me and my tattoo,Meera! we apologise!",i said to her.

"Your tatto can go die. And you go home! I'll talk to mom, and call you!"

I didnt react just frowned.

"Ok.Dont overeact.I am fine...I love you! Can i go now?"

"Sure"

I hugged her tight. she held my left hand as we crossed the road.I dropped her that side and I was about to cross back there as she waited for her bus,she stopped me and kissed over my tattoo,"Promise me you'll love me like this..Always..."

"I promise"

I said that and walked back to the side where my bus would come.We lived in opposite directions.I stood there and was listening to music.I saw her bus come,she waved at me,i waved back.Then the bus blocked my view.I waited for her to come to one of the windows she didnt.I thought Possibly its a crowded bus.Then the bus moved ahead and almost at the same instant i heard a voice. I took out my headphones and ran to get a better view.I saw her.Laying on the road.In midst of a pool of blood.Her blood.She fell off the bus and was ran over by an autoricksha.I stood by the crossing, my heart sinking to hard to live.I saw people running to help her.I couldnt move,i wanted to,ofcourse,but i loved her too much to see her like that.

I managed to gather some courage and took her to the hospital.She was declared dead on arrival.You think i was alive after that? I doubt myself with each breath.