~ Jikook ~

|O| No shame

Songs: "Shameless" by The Weeknd;
"I hate you I love you" by Gnash ft.Olivia O'brien.

} Jimin pov

I woke up finding no one by my side.
Nothing new, but I hoped...

Yes, It's been two years and I still hope.
It's been two years of him using me and I'm still here, on this bed, alone every morning, doing the same things all over again.

I wiped my tears and got into the bathroom to wash myself up. When I finished I went downstairs to meet my bandmate and mum of Bangtan, Jin.

"Annyeong eomma" I greeted him.

"Ehy ChimChiiim! Come here, help me with the breakfast" he's particularly bouncy this morning, isn't he?

I helped him anyways, mostly because I didn't want to think of when he would arrive.

"Annyeong hyungs" here he is.

"Hi Jungkook! Help me and Chim prepare the table, bring me the plates,please" Jin said doing aegyeo..It was really creepy cause he still had the 'do-what-I-asked-or-I'll-beat-you-up-like-a-mum-should-do' look..

He moved from the door frame and directed himself to where I was.
Why is he coming here? I started sweating and tried not to look at him in the eyes, but I failed as I noticed him staring at me while he was coming nearer and nearer. God he's so beautiful.

When he was at a step of distance he greeted me Goodmorning, in his morning raspy voice. Oh my that was too sexy,Gosh someone please save me.

"G-Goodmorning Jun-Jungkook" I managed to murmur back. He kept on staring down at me and I was sweating too much, I didn't know what the hell he wanted!
We stayed like that for what seemed like hours, but it probably was just for a minute or so. Everything was awkward.

Then I realized.

The plates. He had to take the plates and I was just in front of them, blocking him from taking them.
I immediately moved to let him pass.

"Sorry, I was..I was thinking and.."
While I was going away he blocked my arm with his and said what I really didn't want to hear.

"Sorry"

I was tired of all of this.
It was always the same.
He used me then said sorry.
I didn't want his sorrys, I was the one at fault anyways, I was the one who let him destroy me.
And of course no one knew this. Because I had to be the same old stupid ChimChim who got rejected by his favourite Jungkookie, even if it wasn't only on camera.
Bangtan know only ChimChim, the fans the sexy mochi. And it will always be like this. No matter what I feel, I have to endure and make everyone happy.
I just wish I could be happy too, even just for a moment..

~

We just finished learning the choreography for the new upcoming song, 'Fire'.
I still can't get the steps right so I decided to stay longer and practice. So I'll be away from them, from him, for a while.

I went near our leader, Dance Monster, to tell him I was staying when I felt someone picking me up and then making me fall on the ground.
I didn't even have the time to stand up that this animal was on me, hugging me like its life depended on it.

"What-what the hhhell, Kim Taehyung get off of me!" I tried yelling but it was muffled by his shirt.

"I miiiissed youuuuuu and I'm soooo tired!!" He was almost crying, or It seemed so, and I was almost giving up on trying to stand up when suddenly all the weight was lifted off me, letting me finally breathe.
I looked up to see who was my saviour and I think I almost got an heart attack seeing it was him.