Anxious

control

I like to pretend that I can reach out
and hold my fear by its collar
Pull it towards me
Keep it in control
But the illusion I give my world is crumbling
My fear is wild and it shakes my reality
Enough that my thoughts feel broken
And I can't stop myself from falling into the expanse
Filled with my mistakes
Pulling at me
Until I crack and my heart spills