The Life Of A Complete Dickhead

18 June 2016: First

So today I decided to write my whole life down and share it with.. Whoever is reading.
No one is probably reading this at the moment but anyway, I hear journalism is good for self development.

Anyways, allow me to introduce myself.
My name is Jay, I'm a 14 year old transgender male.
I love basketball, music and drawing.. I like making people happy too but those are my hobbies

Here is a; *TRIGGER WARNING* because I'll be talking about my body a lot so if your dysphoria gets triggered by that I'm sorry, this isn't for you. 😬

Anyways.

Where do I start?

Today was stressful. You see, I'm Muslim and transgender, and after the Orlando shooting I just wanted to open a few minds up reminding people that gay people can be Muslim too or anything of that matter, but I got a lot of hate for it.

Not by Muslims, but by atheists who hate my religion and hate the LGBT+ community. It really hurt me and it drove me crazy. I couldn't take it anymore. I ended up listening to music and I calmed down, I was fine after that. So listen to music. It helps lol.

I had more things to worry about though, like finding a better way to pass because I can't take my dysphoria anymore. I've actually considered taking steroids ( illegal ) to bulk up and pass more. I'm still considering taking them.

* please do not think that is the right thing to do, it's not. I know it's not. I'm dumb and stupid though, if you haven't already figured out by now. I just talk about what goes through my head.*

So yes, I'm currently searching for supplements illegal and legal for me to pass more. It's not the right thing to do, of course and I know.. If I ever actually go down that path you'd probably find out why it's bad.

Anyways, I'm really freaking tired.

So I'm going to sleep, that's all I remember for the day. Tomorrow is a new day.

Anyways, keep your head up.