I Hate You (C.H)

Prologue

Last day of school and I can't wait to be gone. No, not because classes are boring, teachers are mean creatures that like to give us monstrous works and fail us, not because the cafeteria has uneatable food or because gym classes are always so exhausting. I want to go away because I am tired of the people in this hell.

My name is Mackenzie Irwin, and I hate High School.

Ok, maybe that was a bit harsh. I can explain, I swear. I will tell you my story, however, promise that you won't t pity me, please, and don't start thinking right away that I should be seen by a therapist or a psychologist, I want to start by saying that most of the days I am smiling, happy, and in a good mood. It is just that life hit me hard, already way too many times, and I am getting tired. I have to keep smiling though, my mom expects it from me, and so does everyone else, and even I expect that from myself. I hate being sad, or in a bad mood,I am a pretty bubbly and hyper girl, I want to look back and be happy, smile, remember how life used to be so nice, because looking back now, that I am 17 years old, I can see a generally happy life marked by all the bad moments I've ever been through.

I was only three years old when my father left me, Ashton, my brother and my mother. I barely remember spending time with him, or good memories with him, but I do remember the day he left. He was with a big black bag, and he was making his way to the front door, and while my mum was upstairs, without courage to see him, I was downstairs with Ashton. He looked into our eyes, I was three, Ashton was seven. He gave me a necklace and a teddy bear, thinking that would make it alright, and he hugged Ashton, telling him he had to take care of me. He left us, and even though at time I didn't understand what was happening I soon found myself with no father, and no memories, and it hit me that he was not coming back.

Ash was the strongest, trying to make my mum happy, but he was six and it was too much on his shoulders, but he took his job of protecting us very seriously. During Christmas, birthdays or Easter we would get a phone call or a present, but we didn't really care that much, and I learnt that we can never count on people too much. I guess that is one of the many reasons why I grew up so fast, why I had to step up and not be childish.

My father leaving was my first disappointment, but it didn't hurt as much as my brother leaving. He was going to be a star, he was going to give us money, presents, he was going to take care of us, just like he wanted. The crappy jobs would be over, and his friends and him would get out of the garage and actually sing for people, plenty of girls, in fact. It all sound amazing and exciting, until I realized that he would be gone for months, away from me. They were taking away my biggest supporter, and all of my friends, since we were all pretty close.

Lastly, and the reason why this High School is hell, was what happened after Ash was gone. People started talking, about us, our family, what we did, how we spent our money, ho we used Ashton, how we wanted to be famous. Lies, rumors, hate, love, respect, it all attacked us at the same time, more than one mixed feeling, more than one emotion. I had no friends, at least not real ones. Everyone wanted me to get to my brother or hated me because I was his sister. I had no idea what was happening, why people wanted to hate me. I shrugged everything off, because I had two amazing best friends. Brian and Sophia, but it was when Brian moved to England that everything crumbled.

It was just me and Sophia, and she was not emotionally strong, she had been through depression and she had problems with anxiety. We had such a strong bond, we were so close, but when Lauren, the "queen bee" got her hands on poor little Sophie, everything took a turn. Sophia felt special, she felt popular, like she belonged, and our friendship was soon forgotten, all the memories, all that we've shared, and I felt so betrayed, so alone. Obviously, the devil got out of the poor girl's mouth all my secrets, my fears, my insecurities, and did nothing but try to ruin me.

I am not a quitter if you know me, and I was not going to let her win, so I let go of Sophie, I stopped trying to be friends with anyone, because in fact, I had no real friends. Sure, I hanged with Margret and Pam, but I could not trust them, I could not feel the bond that I ever felt with Sophie, Brian, the boys, probably because I was so hurt at time, but at least they were kind of funny and not super annoying, only mentioning them when we talked.

So, I am now in a point of life where I want to move on, go forward, leave the teenage drama behind, but I still have one more year of High School ahead, and I still have to take everything and keep pretending that nothing is wrong.

I am Mackenzie, and I am going to turn my life around, I am going to be the happiest girl. I am just not sure how I can do that...

I was getting out of school when I see a jeep with four dorks inside, surrounded by girls. My smile goes from year to year, they are here, and this is my time to be happy.

School is over, the boys are here, I guess this is fate telling me it is time to move on and forget all the bad things that ever happened, forget the feelings that I had, and put a smile on my face because they were here. It had been six months since the last time I was with the band and two weeks since we last skyped.

I got in the jeep, and had a huge smile on my face.

"GUYS! What are you doing here? Weren't you supposed to get here tomorrow morning?" I questioned smiling

"Well, we thought it would be nice to make this a surprise!" my brother smiled, turning around since he was on the driver's seat.

"I missed you guys so much, I don't think you understand how much!" I hugged Luke, the one next to me, and also, my best friend in the band, the one that always understood me and never thought I was "too young and childish" to hang with them.

"Awwe, we missed you too!" he smiled to me, kissing the top of my head gently

"Well, not all of us" an annoying voice came out of nowhere.

"Well, I never said I missed you too Calum..." I rolled my eyes

" I mean, you did in fact said you missed us all, and all of us includes Cal" Ashton giggled

"Well, then I take my words back. I missed all of you except Calum!" I smiled looking at him while he rolled his eyes

"Good, I didn't want you to miss me anyways, you are just so annoying and all bubbly, the minute you got in this car you just changed my mood" he replied.

"My days would also be better if I didn't had to see your face and hear your voice. Remind me again... why do you breath?" the sass is real when it comes to Calum, another person that I truly hated, and the bad part of hanging with the boys

"Then just don't tag along!" he groaned

"Guys, don't you think that is enough? We are all here together, and we can have a great break from work and Kenzi can enjoy er holidays... can we save this for later?

"Of course..." I smiled at my brother who was so concerned "Calum... I hate you"

"Good Kenzi, because I hate you too"

And with that the discussion ended and we got home, just in time to change to a pair of sweatpants and enjoy a good film with my favorite boys..... and Calum