Is This What You Would Call Paradise?

chapter 2

i woke up with a startling headache and the urge to get up and run like a crazy woman out of the house and all the way to mine. but i think the only thing that kept me sane was seeing my two best friends on each side of me totally knocked out from the party last night.

it was all a dream? i questioned myself. it couldn't have been. i then noticed that we were at my house and it was three o'clock in the after noon. my mom gets home around... fourish from working at the hospital.... so i best get these beach bums outta bed and question them what happened to me last night.

i sat up in bed an was hit with a pang of realisation. I broke up with Cooper.... i think. well that's a doozy, i'll think about it later,  i though to myself.

i stood and stretched as much as possible. A sudden wave of dizziness over took me as i feel to the ground. well, dizziness seems to happen often to me these days. i then noticed my reflection in the mirror. i had a horrifying scratch on my left cheek and it was surrounded by a green and purple bruise.

i frowned and whispered to myself, "How ugly," and continued to stare at my refection. I picked a tissue from the box that sat on my night stand and began to wipe of the access grime and blood.

i looked down at my clothes and noticed they seemed fine except they were a little wrinkled from me sleeping in them. Okay, i thought, i REALLY need to talk to them.

i walked over to my bed and violently shook them until they were both wide awake.

"Hey!" Quinn complained. "Give a little respect to the wonderful women who saved your ass from getting caught!'' she rolled off the bed lazily and sluggishly walked to my private bathroom.

Beverly stayed under the covers, but looked at me playfully, '' do you know how hard it is to sneak an unconscious friend through a window with out her parents finding out,'' she glanced at my cut, '' we didn't succeed on the don't drop her part, but the good thing is we didn't get caught,'' she smiled at me playfully.

"were did you find me?" i questioned.

" we found you passed out on the floor after some guy came and told us you passed out on him," she said laughingly.

i kept serious, " what did he look like?" i needed answers, immediately. if i don't then i wouldn't know what to do and i probably already know the consequences.

" he was a tall guy and he was a white kid with dark brown hair..... and he, um, he had a really hot body," she looked confused, " why does it matter?" she looked up at Quinn as she walked into the room.

"okay..." should i tell them, would that make them hate me?i thought really hard and looked up to my friends and saw true concern in their eyes. I felt the tears run down my face before I could stop them, I quickly ran to Beverly and Quinn as they embraced me in an assuring hug.

they both tried to calm me down even though they had no clue what was going on. That's another reason why i loved them so.

I took a deep breath and began the worst thing that would ever leave my mouth, " i-i think he drugged me, and while i was under he.....he um.... he r-rapped me," i felt weak in my stomach and rushed to the bathroom as if the words made me sick, and they did.

Quinn held up my hair and whispered reassuring words, along with Beverly, as i puked up everything i had in me..... even my pride.

when i was finished i looked at the only two people i could trust with this secret, " you cant tell anyone, if you do then my rep is dead," i said in defeat.

Quinn looked at me with a tear stained face," did he use protection?" she looked at me with pure concern.

now that i think about it, i had absolutely no clue, " i-i don't know," i felt another trauma coming but i swallowed it down. "do you have any pregnancy tests?" the question hung in the air like a sour odor.

Beverly raised her hand," i do, but they are at home," she offered.

"Good can i borrow three, i have to make sure," i pleaded.

"well you have to wait a couple days so you will be able to tell," Quinn put in.

"i have to tell Cooper, he needs to know," i stood and faced my friends," ya'll should go home. I need some alone time," i insisted.

they both exchanged glances. Quinn spoke up first," you sure, Aarika?" she was so sincere it hurt to say no.

"Yeah, we are here for you baby," Beverly back up.

"no, i need to handle this on my own," i looked at my friends," don't tell anyone, please," i pleaded again.

they hugged me, warm and loving,"i wouldnt dream of it baby,'' Beverly whispered.

"never in a million years," Quinn said.

When they left i took a shower and readied a bowl of cereal. I dialed his number and what seeemed like forever finally pushed the call botton.

i watched as his name apeered on the screen.

CALLING...

                    COOPER<3