I think I'm getting better. I've been making myself go out and I've got better friends. More understanding ones at least.
It's hard. Seeing him like this. He's so different. In such a great way. He doesnt know I see him the way I used to because I can't let him know. He's not supposed to be good for me and no one will understand but he's helped me so much and even when I'm freaking out he knows how to help me through it. God why can't I live without him. I'm not going to tell him how I feel because what if it's an act? Anyway this is dumb but I'm pushing myself away from everyone so I needed somewhere to put these thoughts
