Red Rose

Chapter one

              Ever thought that life couldn't knock you down after, it has broken you to pieces. Pick you off one by one. I use to think that but I was wrong in so many ways. I watched as life took my family from me, killed in front of my eyes. But what was I to do?, a little girl, crying her eyes out as she begins to be drenched in her brothers blood. Nobody is around to help take him to the hospital, cops barely care to know how all of this happened, who did it and why, what was the motive of the person, Just nothing. No help at all. It's been a year and no one knows what's going on, nor who killed my brother so I guess everything's on me now. My father told me to let it go but I refuse to let someone kill my brother and get away with it. "Your only 17 Erin, what are you going to do?" "I can do a lot stop doubting me" "i'm not doubting you, I'M TRYING TO PROTECT YOU". Never had my father yelled at me. "I can do a lot of things.....with or without you". I said as I turned and ran off to my room. I took out my computer and looked through pictures of me and my brother before he died. As I was looking I realized someone in the background. He's tall, brown skin, curly hair and dark brown eyes. His name is Rodney. Rodney was Shawn's gang friend, he was the reason Shawn even thought about joining a gang. "Maybe I should go pay Rodney a little visit just to see what he knows". I said to myself. I ran downstairs and grabbed my coat and headed out the door. I drove to Rodney house but it looked empty but I got out to see anyway. I knocked twenty times I even banged on the door but no one answered. "I guess I won't find out nothing today". When i was driving home i was thinking to myself "why would he just up and disappear like that? where could he have gon?'. When I got home I saw the door was cracked open. So I pushed lightly on it. When it opened all the way I saw the one person I was looking for. "Hey Rodney" I said. "What's brackin lil bit?". "Nun much just looking for you, I need answers still". "Didn't your dad tell you to let this go?" "Yes and your point is?" "Listen baby girl, this is not something you wanna put yourself in". "You know to me it seems like your hiding something and you don't want me to find out". "Erin let this shit go". "Are you hiding something Rodney?" "Erin don't try to get in my head". "I'm not I'm just saying you might be the killer yourself and that's why you don't want me to go digging around this crime". "Wait a minute did you just.....". He pause to laugh a little at my theory. "I didn't come here for this". "Then why are you here?". "I came to help but I see it ain't wanted". "What do you know Rodney?". "A kid name Kishawn could've done it but i don't know. Him and your brother had beef for long time sweets and getting yourself involved in this mess could get you killed to but why listen to me right?, for all you know I could be the killer". "Rodney i didn't mean it like that...". "Save it Erin I know exactly what you meant". He said as he walked out my house slamming the door behind him. "What did I just do Jesus?". I said to myself. The next day I get up and get ready for school I didn't feel like myself. I felt bad and I knew exactly why. As soon as i walked out my room my dad was mugging me. Obviously he knows what happened with me and Rodney yesterday and he's gonna have some words for me. We sit in the car in silence until my dad busted the question. "Erin why did you accuse Rodney of being a killer?". "I didn't accuse him I just bluntly stated that he may be just to get some information I didn't mean it how he thought I did". "I thought I told you to leave this alone?". "I know but I can't dad I just can't". "WHY ERIN WHY?". "YOU'LL NEVER UNDERSTAND.....you don't even care that someone took him from us......from me". I felt the tears fall from my face as I bent over to sob in my hands. "Your not the only one in pain Erin". "Then why does it feel like I am?". He went silent. The rest of the way we didn't say anything to each other just pure silence. When we pulled up at the school Tonya was right there waiting for me. "Bye Erin". My dad said. I didn't even look back I just closed the door and walked off. "Hey what's going on?". "Nothing just nothing". "Erin your eyes are red your shirt is wet something happened". "Listen I don't feel like talking bout it, I just can't". I said as I walked away. I went to my locker and got some eye drops and put my bookbag in there. When I looked over I saw Rodney and I wanted to freaking fall apart. How could I do something like that to him. I closed my locker and walked over to him nervously. "Hey". I said. He looked but didn't say anything instead he tried to walk away. "Rodney wait I'm..... i'm sorry for yesterday I really didn't mean it I shouldn't have said that to you". "It's all good I just said fuck the situation and fuck you Erin I would've expected that from someone who didn't know me but you....man that's harsh". "Rodney I'm..." "I know you sorry but sometimes sorry ain't good enough". "Then what is? I can't keep walking around here knowing I fucked up completely and knowing I have no one else to have my back, Rodney you have to believe me when I say I'm sorry". "Baby girl I'll always have your back but we can't be friends no more man we can't be nothing". "Rodney...". "Don't..just don't". When he walked away I could feel my heart just fall out my chest. It felt so heavy. "So you wanna tell me what just happened?" Said tonya. "I accused him of Shawn's murder and I didn't mean anything by it I just needed to know who and why but I didn't mean to take it that far now he's mad and now I'm hurt". "It's gonna be ok kid you still got me". "Yeah I know". When I went to class and walk through the door Javi was there to hug me and rock me back and forth. "Hey". "Hey". Javi is one of my close friends. We knew each other since birth, born the same day but technically I'm order by a min and 4 sec. "What's with the sad face?". "I kinda did some wrong and now karma is kicking my ass. I mean i deserve it though because.... Well i just do." i could feel the sadness cover my face. "I'm pretty sure whatever it is you can fix it, you always do." "I don't think i can fix it this time." "If your talking about what you said to Rodney....yeah your done for." the voice said behind me. I already knew who it was before i even turned around. Her voice is the most annoying thing I've heard in my 17 years of life. I hate her for multiple reason, the list just keep getting longer and longer. "Millyon Braves.... Can't say im surprised your in my business your like my number one fan but unfortunately i don't like you so please get out my face before i make you." i said as i stepped closer to her. "I hope you know Rodney is mines so you need to back off NOW." i look at Javi who had his eyebrows raised. "I know this bitch aint just yell at me". "Did you just call me a....Bitch". "Yes i did"." Yo watch how you talk to my girl". Said Rodney as he walked into our conversation. "I don't care about you nor yo bitch she can kiss my...." "ERIN". Yelled Javi. "....i swear i just don't like neither one of you guys....just keep your distant cause if you dont i wont keep mine." "Erin come on class started." i walked away with javi who wouldn't let me go for nothing. In class i couldn't stop thinking about him. Like first of all i know i did dirt but dang how could he even think about dating Millyon. He knows i hate that girl with a passion. "Hey? You ok?" Asked Javi. I looked at Rodney and Millyon and said "I don't even know anymore". Javi pulled me into his arms and hugged me tightly. The bell finally rung and I was able to escape the torture of first block now three more to go. I met up with Ashley one of my friends from middle school and she asked me to come to a party tonight at Rodney's house and I looked at her like 'no ma'am I'm not leavening my home' and she begged me to damn near death to go so I said "yes I'll go but I don't know how tonight is gonna turn out for me". When school ended I rushed home and changed into a black body hugging dress, exposing all my shape and my orange Just Do It Nike and pulled my hair in to bun and swooped my edges. I put on lip gloss and perfume and my Bamboo hoops. "Hey sweetie". My dad said as he peeked his head through the door. "Hey dad". "Now where are you going again". "A party at Rodney's and no I'm not gonna start any trouble ok I'm only going because my friend begged me too". "Alright then have fun, but not too much fun". "Yes sir". When i pulled up to the party everyone was on the lawn drinking and dancing all over the place. I walked over there and everyone i passed was like "HEY ERRIIINNN". I was said hey but in the back of my head i'm like 'what the hell they on?, I need to get some of it if i'm gonna make it through this party'. As i walked through the crowd of drunken teenagers i ran into Rodney and he was not happy to see me. "Who invited you to my party so i can kick they ass out?". He said with such anger. I should be mad at him for talking to me like that but i deserve it to be honest but that's not what got me. The fact that his cheeks rise when he gets mad and his dimples show when his mouth turns up and i couldn't help but look into his eyes when he yelled at me. "Yo whats yo problem?". Asked Tonya as she sneaked up on us with Javi and Ashley. "Watch yourself Tonya don't get beat for your friend". "First of all you not gon touch her not as long as i have sum to say about it". I said as i snapped out of my gaze. "Or what?". He said. "Try it and find out". He took a step closer to me and looked down on me. "Babe". Millyon called out to Rodney but he didn't dare break eye contact with me. "Lets go Erin". Tonya said as she pulled me away. When we got upstairs to get away from Rodney and Millyon they all stared at me. "What?". I asked all 6 eyes. "What was you thinking?". "What do you mean? It's not like i meant to run into him and make him mad but thats what happened". They all shook they head at me in disappointment. "I'm going to go back to the party and act this never happened". "I second that", javi said as he followed Ashley downstairs. Silence came over me and Tonya as we stood in the hallway. "Next time be more careful don't be walking around people like everything ok because in their mind its not". Tonya said to me. "But i didn't do anything wrong he's the one who started the argument all i did was walk through the door". "Yeah a door to a party that you aint post to be at". Said Rodney from the top stair. He walked up on me again. He looks down on me with anger like i did something wrong. "But i'm here so let it go, you really making me angry because i said sorry already and it was genuine and you still trying to make my life hell, then you started dating that bitch Millyon like seriously i hate that girl with a passion and she hates my guts....you got some nerves". He looks over at Tonya who is just taking in all the tea. Usually i would love to get some tea to but not when its me. "Can i talk to Erin alone please". She casually walked away but trust me she ain't far. "What do you want". "Listen i came to say your right and that i'm sorry, i didn't mean to make your life hell but what you said was very hurtful and i couldn't deal because your not the only one whos said something like that to me. I mean i don't care about no one else but you...man that was cold as fuck man". "Listen Rodney i didn't mean to hurt you and i really didn't mean to say that to you it just slipped out..im sorry i really am". "I know you told me already". "I know but you act like you dont care so it's like whatever". The next thing that happened shocked me. Rodney kissed me. "Um don't you have a girlfriend?". "Man forget her i just did that so i can get to you". He kissed me again and pushed me into the bathroom. He kissed my neck and squeezed my thighs. He pulled my dress up to my waist and took my panties off. "What about Milliyon?". He looked in my eyes and looked like he just didn't care. "Man fuck her you know good and well that girl ain't my type, she too damn bourgeois and i need someone like you because your a lot like me". He kissed me and started to kiss me down my neck. I looked out the door and i saw milliyon looking at us, so i politely closed the door in her face and continued with Rodney. "Rodney??".He just kissed me and continued on. He unzipped his pants and took out his dick and put it in. I flinched a little but it felt good after a while. His strokes drove me crazy and I kept moaning his name and digging my nails in his back. Every time he went deeper and deeper it made me forget all the bullshit in life. The love, the heat, the passion, oh my God it was all so worth it. After that moment we got dressed and walked out the bathroom but we didn't make it far. "Tonya". "Erin". "Is there a problem". She had her arms folded and her facial expression showed nothing but disgust. "No...not one issue". I said as I walked off from her". So what you want to do now?". "I want to go home". "Let's go then". The ride home was funny he was telling corny jokes but it was cute. He's so prideful and full of joy which is weird because he never really shows it. Rodney had a hard life growing up. His mom was on drugs and his dad was a drug dealer in and out of prison and his older brother DaeDae was the same as his father just a little slicker he covered his tracks and made sure no one opened there mouth but he made sure Rodney and the others had food on the table and paid the bills and got them anything they wanted. DaeDae was a hero to Rodney not because he sold drugs but because he hid the struggle from them and made sure to keep them happy. He hid what we call life from them and he replaced it with a make believe life, he was Rodney's father figure. I never asked him about his family I just ignore that conversation. When we got to my place we chilled in my room and watched Step Sisters on Netflix. The next morning I wake up I'm wrapped In Rodney's arms. "Hey baby". He said as he kissed my forehead. "Hey". He was already dressed when I woke up, he looked so cute with his Tim's on and his black T-shirt on and his custom Que Dog jacket. I know you probably thinking why he got a QDog jacket if he in high school but he got that custom made because when he graduate and go off to college he wanna be a Que Dog. I support him in his dreams truthfully and honestly but if he keeps up this gang stuff he might not live to see it. But anyway I decided to match him today, I put on a royal purple Air Jordans and a gold body con onesie and gold hoops. When he saw me he was so surprised."Baby". He said with a bright smile. "Yes". "You look so beautiful". "Thank you thank you". I said as I kissed his soft big lips. "So what do you want to do today?". "We got school today". "Let's skip me and you....let's just have fun....what do you say?". "What about my dad? He's never gonna agree to this". "He doesn't have to know". He said as he picked me up and put me on the bed. His lips just drive me crazy and his embrace made me go crazier. I know that sex is something that happens with teenagers everyday but when it's Rodney it's love and passion you can feel the emotion. "Bae shush your dad is still here". "I'm trying". "I know just can't take it I understand". "Fuck you". "I love you too". We started kissing again until we got interrupted by a knock on the door. "My dad is going to kill us". "Calm down I got this". When he opened the door it was a beautiful women with blonde hair, bright soft skin, perfect body shape, nails and toes done, about 5'7, with blue eyes staring back at us. I haven't seen this women in years because she left us like we was dead weight. She didn't call, text,emailed, Hell she didn't even send some mail but I expected that from her. She was never there for us and I just could never forgive her even with her looking at me now I still can't believe her. "Erin". "Honey". "Do not call me that". "Then what do I call you". "Let's try this again.....Erin". "Mother".