Because of him

00: another pretty face

im back..ish
wow, i was gone for years . :)

My dad always told me to watch out for guys. I guess he's just going through that 'overprotective father' phase. I don't blame him. Who'd want a daughter that dates some scrummy kid who's parents are probably kidnappers, being the most wanted criminals in America? Hey, I mean...who knows what could happen? Life never got easier for my father. After mom left, it felt like it was just us two in this world. When my dad told me some new girl would be moving in, I always thought mum would come back. But after remembering the forlorn, plainness face she had when she left, it made me realise, hope was too strong of a word, it almost felt impossible. I missed her so much, it felt like a a part of me was literally taken away. But when I found out, it was some new chick named 'Stephanie', I thought otherwise. She was tall and frail, with blonde hair that waved around her shoulders. There was something extremely suspicious about that girl, but she was too beautiful for me to notice what. They always said to not fall for the looks, I mean, for all we know, there could be a vicious snake trapped inside her insanely eye candy of a face.

"I met her at one of my conferences at work", he says.
"She's a nice one. Have you seen those cheekbones?"
Who hasn't? I mean, their so prominent, you could cut an onion with one of those.
"I'm sure you'll two will get along fine. I heard she has a cute little cousin she could set you up with huh?" He says, as he gently nudges my shoulder.
"Dad, I thought you didn't like me hanging out with guys?", I say with a perplexed look on my face.
"Yeah well, I thought if you two could hang out sometimes, maybe me and stephy could have some time to just get to know each other. You know, just us two..and such?", he slyly says, avoiding eye contact with me.
I search for his eyes, until he meets my gaze.
"Dad.."
So now he doesn't want to spend time with me anymore?
"Cmon kiddo, you know how important this is to me. I mean ever since mum", his voice slowly trailed off.
I didn't like when he talked about mum, it brought back memories of the time i never got to spend enough moments with her.
It felt like ever since him and Stephanie dated, we never got to spend enough time together.
Maybe he just preffered hanging out with her.
I mean whod wanna spend time with his great old daughter, who had no such thing as a life. 
Not him.
Probably not even me.

Dates were the worst. Sometimes, he'd be too paranoid, he'd even take me with him.
You could tell Stephanie wasn't into it.
Yesterday, he told me to start calling her mom.
Who did he think he was ?
I was never going to call someone like her, my mom.
We all knew she wasn't even fond of me.
I was like a sheep, who was forced to follow everyone, not by choice.
I wouldn't care staying home alone, but there was no way I was going to persuade him that much, as to letting me.
Ice cream, skittles, pantry raiding galore.
Stephanie was into eating healthy food, like green goop and brown solids with a smell of cabbage and mud mixed together. She once tried to make me eat it, but we all knew i wasn't in for getting poisoned.
I think I liked my body just the way it was.
I think I can throw in my life too.