BxB One Shots [Lyle & Syll]

Coming out

I was kind of in a sad mood and thought back at my youth and about my dad. I don't have a dad and that's the same reason as Syll. His back story with his dad is based on mine. Of course it's a bit different but this is how most of it went so yeah.

This can be triggering for some people cause to "child abuse"/something emotional with dad's/depressive thoughts

Today is the day. The day I will come out of the closet and tell my mom and brother about this. I am nervous how will they react? I now the accept LGBT people but does that also count for me? It's just I am only fifteen maybe they think I am joking or that I am just confused.

I hear you ask but what about your dad? I don't have a dad in my eyes. My parents are divorced since my birth but until my eight I needed to visit him every two weeks or something. Lets just say my dad didn't treat me like his son. I always disappointed him and no that is not in my head. My dad always said stuff like this to me.
How I was the black sheep of the family and my brother was the only son that would make him proud and if I dared to say something back I got hit. For years now I have trust issues because of him. He controlled my life I couldn't do anything if I was at his house.

My mom even got police at the door because of some stupid made up reason. I hate my dad. I don't even want to call him my dad. He's no family to me. Luckily I look more like my mom I don't want to have anything in my life to do with him anymore. Every time I think about it I see those awful memories again. To this day I still have nightmares about it. Mostly they are about him taking a family member with him. The last time it were my mom and my brother. That was the scariest nightmare ever because they mean everything to me. With out them I wouldn't be standing here in my room. With out them I would probably be already dead but they help me stay strong. The bond between me, my mom and my brother is so strong nobody can break that. Not even a very special person. That's the only positive thing my dad ever did to us. Bringing each other closer than ever.

I look around my room and sigh. I don't cry when I talk about my dad to myself only if I talk with others about him. Mostly I avoid such conversations but the people at school are way to curious so mostly I still tell the story. But then after I have told it they suddenly feel so sorry for me and act like my friends but in reality they really aren't. I miss my real friends. I had one for a long time but he changed and eventually we broke apart. So now I am lonely. I only have some internet friends but that's all. I never met them in real life and it is the question if they really want to be my friends after I tell them I am gay. I expect some friends to leave but that how life goes. Friends come and go. Most friends aren't for a life time.

I stood up from my bed and look in the mirror hanging on my closet door. I brushed my fringe out of my eyes and looked at myself. I quickly looked away I am not ready  for negative body thoughts right now. I am like the typical emo kid. But I don't consider myself emo. I have straightened hair and just mostly wear black but that's all. Of course I listen to bands that are also considered emo but I don't like to put myself in a group especially not that one so i'll just keep it on being Syll the loner.

I opened the door of my room took a deep breath and walked to my brothers room. "Nathan?" I knocked on his door.

"Come in!" I opened his door and saw he was playing video games on his computer. "Hi Syll what is it?"

"I have something important to tell you and mom could you come with my to the living room?" He paused his game and turned around. He smiled at me and stood up walking past me out of his room.

"Are you coming or are you gonna stand in my room for the rest of the day?" He asked I quickly walked out of his room and followed him down the stairs into the living room. My mom was sitting on the couch watching TV. "Mom, Syll wants to tell us something so can the volume of the TV be turned down?" My mom grabbed the TV remote and turned the TV volume down. My brother and I both walked to the couch and sat down. My brother next to my mom on the same couch and me on another couch alone.

"What do you want to tell us Syll?" My mom asked looking at me.

"How do I say this." I sighed. "I-I uhm..." I broke down in crying.

"Oh come here." My mom hugged me until I was calm again. "Now tell me what is so important."

"I-I am gay..." I began to cry again. "I accept it if you don't want me to be your son or brother anymore." I said between my tears.

"Hey silly we don't hate you just because you like wieners." My brother said. I smiled a little but my crying didn't stop. What if they were lying?

"We already knew sweetie." My mom shushed me.

"Y-you did?"

"Yeah, you just looked at males differently as Nathan. Same for females. But that doesn't mean we don't love you anymore. No, we love you just as much and I think it is very brave of you to say this to us."

"So you don't think I am to young to already know I am gay?"

"No, some people find out earlier than other people. You just found out early and that is no problem at all." My mom hugged me. "Your still my Syll and nothing will change that."

"Yeah and it doesn't mean that you change all of the sudden just because you are gay." I stopped crying. They really do mean it. They still love me. "But you'll still be my little brother."

"I am not little!" I said defending myself while laughing.

"Oh yeah I forgot you are literally one inch smaller than me." He chuckled. My mom got up from the couch and turned around facing me.

"To celebrate you coming out of the closet I will buy you a cake if you like it or not." She said smiling. It wasn't like a normal smile it was a proud smile. "See you boys in a couple minutes!" She walked out of the door and now I was left with my brother.

"I swear if you don't get a boyfriend in five years I will personally find you one." My brother said. I looked at him.

"Don't worry." He smiled and walked away. "Oh and Nathan." He turned around. "Thanks."

"Love you Syll."

"Love you too." He walked away.

So this was the story how Syll came out of the closet in front of his brother and mother. I maybe write how he came out of the closet to his friends but not rn.