My Life

My Europe Trip.

So I leave for Europe in 8 days (I leave 7/2) and I can't tell you if I'm excited, or if I am regretting signing up.

Sure, I'm excited to see new things, to be introduced to new cultures, and travel. But, it seems like I'll be traveling with people who don't like me. And people who I don't like.

I feel like if me and Alice hadn't gotten into our fight (was it even a fight? I'm actually still confused) I'd be so much more excited. But because things are awkward between the two of us, I feel as if the trip itself is going to be exactly that. Awkward. We fly a total of 22 hours. 22 hours I'll be on a plane with her. What if she's mad at me? What if I'm still mad at her? I have no idea how I feel about anything right now. I'm also rooming with her.

I mean, I don't think I'm mad at her. I think I'm just slightly heartbroken. But, I've dealt with enough heartache and break in my life that I can conceal it pretty well.

Who knows, maybe we'll makeup. Maybe I'll find someone and fall in love with them, and then have my heartbroken even more when I have to leave. Yeah, hope that doesn't happen. Maybe we will both realize that we aren't supposed to be friends anymore. That the time we had together was great, but that is all we get. Maybe that will be The Universe's way of telling us to wake the hell up and smell the roses because we need to move on. Or maybe our plane will crash and we will all die. Who knows.

Me and Melissa's relationship has been rocky too. She got mad at a lot of people a few weeks back; and of course, I was one of them. She ignored me and just treated me like shit for a good 3 weeks but then one day she was fine. She was talking to me and acting as if nothing happened and I did too. I mean really hate confrontation and if her acting fine again was done without me directly talking to her about it, I wasn't asking any questions.

Tense relationships aside, I'm pretty confident that this trip will be great. Which is saying something as I am the person to hate everything, and look at everything very negatively.

I do have high hopes for this trip even though the circumstances seem pretty shitty. I'm excited for the food, the views, the pictures I'll take, the food, the experience, the food, the culture I'm about to dive into, and especially the food. God I love food.

Plus, for a trip that costs over 4,000$ one of our hotels better have a pool that overlooks the fucking city of Dubai.

Author's Note:

I never realized how depressing I actually am. Wow, I need to chill. Anyways, I'm planning on writing while I am there about my trip, so maybe 1 chapter for everyday or every-other day? I'm gone for 10 days. Comment if you have a preference on either one. I'll include pictures when I make the chapters too. (I write as if I have an audience).