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I put on a forced smile.
Hoped he didn't notice how forced it was, that he would take it like any smile.
-Nick.., he said and smiled widely,
His smile looked fake. Forced. But I kept quiet.
I didn't know that I would regret it later.

-Hi Parker, Vio said as cheerful as usually when he saw Parker.
Parker just nodded.
-Hi Vio, Felicia is coming soon.
Vio burst into a grin.
-Yay I've missed her♥ he said and grinned even wider.
-You always do.
-Because I love her, duuh.., Vio said and snickered.
Someone poked my back.
I turned around. Neo was looking shyly at me.
-Hi Nick.., he said quietly.
-What's the matter Neo? I said and sat down next to him.
-I have a prolem, he said short.
-I bet it's cause you can't win over me when it comes to me, Parker said in a confidient way.
I gave him a stare that pretty much meant "Now-is-not-the-time-for-your-bullshit".
Parker looked away at once, probably feeling ashamed.
He should be.
I had already told those two to stop arguing. But that's one thing that will probably never happened.
Like.. they usually listen to what I say.
Not cause I control them, but they don't wanna hurt me.
And I'd never use their feelings. That's horrible and I can't believe there exists people that does that, like Alexis Roy for example.
I still don't understand people that take a liking to her.
She is such a bitch.
In both ways.
First off, she is mean and have no sympathy for others. And she is so fake too.
and second.
She is a dog. Or more detailed, a damn fox. And she is a girl.
And a bitch is a female dog so it's almost correct and- nevermind why am I bringing it up even.
Let's say that she is not a.. liked person.
In my opinion.
She is also a ghost, which is just perfect.
Since ghosts can turn invisible as they like and do whatever they want.

Neo didn't even roll his eyes at Parker like he usually does.
He just kept focus on me. Nickolah Axiell as they know me.
Sometimes I forget who I really am. And it feels good.
That is my secret.
And I don't wanna tell anyone, yet.
-Soo my problem.., Neo repeated again.
-Yes? I said patiently waiting for him to contine.
-Is that I can't get you out of my head.
I just stared at him.
It was quiet.
Awkward silence.

And suddenly someone started to snicker,then burst into laughter.
And that someone was Parker.
I turned around and gave him a irritated stare. He stopped laughing at once.
-Sorry.., he mumbled.
-You should be, I said a bit coldly towards him.
He looked at Neo and his eyes narrowed. I turned around and Neo was staring sweetly at me. Cutie.
-So I'm stuck in your head?, I said teasingly at him and smirked.
Neo just nodded.
-And what can I do about that?
-I don't know..
He shrugged his shoulders and looked away.
When I turned around towards Parker again, he was literally sitting behind me!
-Parker?? I let out.
He grinned innocently at me.
-My mind is filled with you too♥
He leaned closer, and I automatically leaned backward.
Parker embraced me and pulled him towards himself.
-I love you Nick♥, he whispered.
I looked down.
His sleeves had been pulled up again when he had embraced her.
The cuts was so visible.
I teared up right on spot.

Just by thinking about her lovely Parker, alone. In his room.
With razors or knifes or whatever he used on the floor. And a little pool of blood, that grew to a bigger pool.

She doesn't realize she is crying herself by thinking about this until Parker lifts her chin and stares straight into her eyes.
-What's the matter? He asked worried.

She couldn't answer, the words just came out as sobbings.

-C'mere.., he said and lifted her up in his arms.
High above the floor, he was really tall. Even if Neo, Vio, Isaac and Elias was taller. But.. being this high above the ground.. it was kinda scary when her hands was onto Parker's chest.
She saw how he looked up, at Neo.
-Neo.. you've been cheering her up all the time. So I should give it a try, Parker said and didn't wait for a response.

He just turned around and walked towards the exit. I could hear how Neo muttered "idiot".
Parker didn't seem to hear it, or he maybe did but totally ignored him.
He just kept walking towards his room. He opened the door.

Walked in.

And closed and locked the door. He walked towards his bed, and let me down on it.
He sat down and layed down next to me, he was closest to the edge of the bed.
I was about to sit up but he pulled me down again. Moved closer towards me.
-Parker?.., I said and heard that my voice was totally broken.
-Ssssh.. don't speak, he said and put his index finger against my lips.
His finger was so soft.

I just nodded.

He pulled me into his arms and kissed my forehead.
-You can tell me everything..
He whispered into my hair.
I took a deep breath.
-Okay.., I said.
And began to tell him about that I had seen his scars and how I actually feels about it.

His face just became paler and paler for every word I said.

I could clearly see, he was scared for what I'd do after noticing this.
But he didn't have to be.
And I told him this.
And he smiled again.