My poems/songs

Pain

Pain

Depressed

its all i feel rn. 

my heart aches w/ pain. 

Why cant i just fit in n have friends i think evry day as i get tortured, teased, picked on and hurt by kids who hate  me. 

i dont even kno why they do it. 

how is this fair. 

i hate myself 

i hate the way i  look

the way i am

that im even alive

sometimes i wish i was dead. 

just so i could be happy

i can't take it anymore

the pain i feel is too much for me to handle 

i cant hold on to the lies i've been telling myself for so long

so its tym for me to say goodbye to those i love and for me to leave

after all how can i be happy when im always miserable n depressed. 

I wanna end it all w/ my blade

its the only  thing i feel that is right. 

i sigh in relief as my arm bleeds from the cuts i put there. 

i cut more n more

one for being stupid

one for being ugly

one for being alive

i think as i cut into my arm. 

the blood drips down my arm n i feel alive n like im human. 

y cant i just feel happy 

i start crying n my vision is blurred by the tears flowing. 

i keep cutting n cutting

it feels so good. 

i finally stop n look at my arm. 

its covered in blood n cuts. 

i get up to clean off my arm n faint. 

i fall into the darkness and i never wake up again.