Chapter 6
"What?" I saw as shock registered his face. I kept a passive expression and turned my back at him. Humarap ako sa fridge para hindi niya makita ang expression sa mukha ko.
"You heard me, Ian." I said calmly despite the growing emptiness that Ive felt in my chest. This should be easy. I'm used to it anyway and I've done it plenty of times. Breaking up with a guy is normal. Everyone breaks up a relationship every time. There's nothing new to it hence, I shouldn't be affected.
"Why? Anong ginawa ko? Kung dahil ito sa nangyari sa party, hindi ko sinadya ang nangyari sa party Jee. I swear I didn't know that the beer was drugged." I opened the fridge and pretended to look for something inside.
"I know Ian." Mahinang sabi ko habang nakayuko pa din sa loob ng fridge. Masarap ang lamig na dulot ng fridge. Pinapalamig niya ang nag iinit kong mga mata. Maybe it could even freeze the liquid that is threatening to fall in my cheek.
"Then why?" Kinuha ko ang broccoli kahit na hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko sa gulay. I took my time closing the fridge as I embrace the bitterness and shock in his voice.
"I got bored. You're too good for me, Ian. The likes of you bore me real fast. Too good, too ideal, too... perfect. Your kind is really not my type. Besides, ang usapan natin ay susubukan natin and I guess it didn't work so let's stop this." Walang emosyon na sinabi ko. I put down the broccoli in the sink.
"Humarap ka sa akin at sabihin mo yan!" I can sense anger in his voice and I smiled because I got the reaction that I've been hoping.
Hindi ko siya sinagot at nagkibit balikat lang ako. I was about to walk passed him when he grab my arms and forced me to face him. Nalaglag mula sa ulo ko ang hoodie at nakita ko ang panlalaki ng mga mata niya pagkakita niya sa mukh ko.
"Jee..." Nag iba ang expression sa mukha niya. Tenderness replaced the anger Ive seen a while ago. Tumaas ang isang kamay niya at marahang hinaplos ang kalmot sa mukha ko. Sinubukan kong hindi magreact. Tiningnan ko siya ng diretso sa mga mata.
"Please understand Ian that we are not serious. This is a trial relationship. Alam mo yun."
"We are not serious? Trial relationship?" he snorted and gives out an insulting laugh.
"Wow! Is that what you think it is?" Naniningkit ang mga mata niya habang nakatingin sa akin at pinilit kong salubungin ang mga mata niya. I wouldn't backed down. Hindi ko ugali ang mag back down.
"No. This is what weve talked about."
"So ganun na lang yun? Dahil bored ka na kaya bibitaw ka na lang? That's just so fucked up Jihann." Binitiwan niya ako at tumalikod sa akin. Ilang beses din niyang sinuklay ng mga daliri niya ang buhok niya.
I can sense his anger and frustration.
"What do you expect Ian?" Mahina pa ding sabi ko. Kalmado pa rin ako kahit na pakiramdam ko, anytime, may sasabog na sa dibdib ko.
"I expect us to last Jihann!" Humarap siya sa akin. His face fiercer and angrier than a minute ago. Parang naririnig ko na ang paninisi niya sa akin. Naririnig ko na ang mga tanong and I'm ready to answer all of his questions. I'm ready to face all the blames he'll throw at me.
Huminga ako ng malalim at seryosong tiningnan siya. I didn't even flinch at his angry stare. I'm used to it anyway.
"You expect us to last? I don't Ian. To be brutally honest, I wasn't only bored. I was also disappointed with you at the party. For a smart guy, accepting a drink from a stranger is utter stupidity. I hate it that I need to fight with those girls just to get you out of there. It wasn't very cool and I never dreamt of having a sissy for a boyfriend." Lalong naningkit ang mga mata niya sa sinabi ko. I would love to applaud myself for that well delivered line.
