You sigh as you look at yourself once more in the mirror, Chris always told you how beautiful you were, but you couldn’t force yourself to believe it mainly because you were too trusting in your past and that only ended horribly, you would believe them every time they complimented you, they being your old friends and Ex-Boyfriends.
Every time a friend left or an a boyfriend would leave, they would tell you how truly ugly you were, You had heard it enough times that you began to believe them, it made you feel worthless and horrible about yourself and that’s were your self-harm had begun.
You would sit in your bathroom and cut everyday, No matter how the day went you still felt worthless, Then almost four months later you met your current boyfriend:Chris. He had helped you to stop hurting yourself,you had been clean for almost six months, but today just wasn’t your day you couldn’t log onto Instagram,Twitter,Facebook,anything really, Due to all the hate you were getting on them.
You glanced once more at your phone and scrolled through the comments on Chris’ most recent picture of you and him, He took you out shopping just a couple days ago and he decided to take many pictures and he posted one of them, it was your favorite your eyes were closed and your nose was scrunched up,while Chris was kissing your cheek.
Tears threatened to spill as you kept reading the comments many saying:
‘How could Chris date that ugly bitch?’
‘He could do so much better than that fat whore.’
"Ugh! Just look at her,I heard she hooked up with balz before she met Chris. Band Whore’
The last one was a utter lie, Balz was like your big brother.
You decided that you should take a bath, hoping it would relax you,You walked to the bathroom and shut the door,subconsciously forgetting to lock the door as you stripped out of your clothes and ran your bath.
You stumbled across something in the cabinet while searching for a cloth, and your were frightened,you had forgot that you still had it,Chris had made you get rid of all of your razors but you must have hid this one.
You picked it up and twirled it between your fingers as you climb into the tub,turning the water off.
Chris would be disappointed in you but he was at the studio with the boys working on the new album.
You were so caught up in your thoughts that you hadn’t heard the front door opening or closing, as you placed the blade upon your wrist the bathroom door opened, causing you to look up at a shocked looking Chris.
Before you could even say something Chris snatched the blade from you and threw it somewhere, you looked down placing your arms over your head in utter shame.
You felt yourself being lifted but you ignored it, the cold water made you shiver as you were placed back down,you turned slightly and saw Chris sitting there, His arms around your waist pulling you against his chest,whispering sweet nothings in your ear, tears slipped down your cheeks as realization sunk in.
“(Y/N) Why? I love you so much and You are so much better than this,You promised me that you would stop,You are perfect,and I love you,That’s all that matters. Please talk to me next time.” Chris mummers against your neck as his hands slide up and down your arms in a comforting way.
A few more tears slipped but you took in every word Chris said knowing he didn’t want a reply now, he’d ask you later like he usually does when you’re upset.
Chris moves you off his lap so he can get out,you watch intently as he dries himself off before placing the towel around his waist. He picks you gently wrapping a towel around your naked figure,trying his best to dry you off.
He carries you bridal style to the room the two of you share,he pushed the door open softly before placing you down on the silk sheets that covered the bed, You laid down pulling the cover over yourself as Chris pulled on a pair of boxers.
He laid down beside you,pulling you into his chest and sighing softly, You knew sooner or later that you would have to tell Chris but now was not that time, you laid your head on his chest, tracing the tattoos on his right arm, tracing his tattoos always seemed to calm you down and Chris knew that and that’s why he let you.
You smiled a little knowing that as long as you had Chris life would be a little better, when he said what he did earlier it made you forget all about what the little Fangirls were saying, Chris loved you and to you that's all that mattered.
~Creature
