I'm Living With One Direction

Chapter 17- The Thirteenth Birthday Dilemma

Lulu's pov

When I woke up from my sleep I actually felt better! Louis was on his phone scrolling through twitter awkwardly trying not to hit me while I was still using his shoulder as a pillow. He looked down "hello there sleeping beauty?!" He said "hey, do you feel any better?" I asked "sure do! I think one day rest and i'll be all good!" he said "what about you?" "I feel better, but still not 100%" I said as Eleanor burst through the door "my poor baby! Do you still feel sick?" she said rushing over to Louis, I removed myself from his shoulder laughing. "Are you laughing at us?" Louis asked I nodded "its really funny but at the same time the cutest thing ever!" I said.

Then Danielle, Perrie, Liam, Niall, Zayn and Harry came into the room "how do you feel Lu?" Liam asked "good!" I said sitting up "lay back down sweetie" Danielle said "I don't wanna!" I whined, they all laughed at me "are you sure you're not three years old?" Harry asked laughing "excuse me! last time I checked I was thirteen turning fourteen very soon!" I said poking my tongue out at him "ooo when is your birthday?" Perrie asked "in... actually never mind!" I said as I do not want to celebrate my birthday this year, this would be the first birthday without my Dad, and on that very day, my thirteenth birthday, the doctors found his cancer was back and rampaging through his body. That was the day we were told we had two weeks left and there wasp nothing we could do about it.

"I'm minding! Why won't you tell us!" Zayn said "I don't want to celebrate my birthday this year!" I said "sorry Miss Lulu but we will be celebrating your fourteenth birthday! When is it?" Niall said "I don't want to so I won't be!" I said "come on Lu just tell us, you have to celebrate!" Liam said "you should know Liam, every year I get a birthday card signed 'Love Auntie Karen, Uncle Geoff, Nicola, Ruth and Liam!' And I don't wanna celebrate!" I said "yeah, well I get a card that says 'Love Auntie Carrie and Lulu' so when is my birthday?" He reasoned sassily "August?" I asked "okay she is smarter than we thought! what's the date?" Liam said "29th!" I said hoping that I listened close enough to Poppy when she was fangirling!

"Do you actually have time to look at a card from me and mum?" I asked "of course! Why wouldn't I want to read a card from my favorite little American!" Liam said poking my nose "if you got a card signed Liam's name every year, how come you didn't know you were related to one fifth of one direction?" Zayn asked "well Mum, Auntie Karen and Ruth all failed to inform me of this" "how do you know Ruth?" Liam interrupted "she came with your mum to Dads funeral. I talk to her all the time now! Anyways as I was saying I was not informed of this mysterious Liam character, that was never around but his name was on all cards, was actually a fan-bloody-tastic singer and in a world famous boy band! But every time you guys were on tv or in the paper or anywhere like that my mum would have the biggest smile on her face, she has this thing with her eyes, they have a little sparkle in them when she is proud and she has the sparkle in her eyes when ever she sees you anywhere. I never understood why I teased her about being a directioner!" I said "That's a little bit cute!" Perrie said "you still haven't said why you don't want to party on your birthday!" Niall said doing a random dance.

"Yeah, why don't you want to celebrate birthday love?" Harry asked "I have my reasons." I sighed shrugging "which are?" Niall said "which are....not open for discussion!" I said "sorry reasons or not were going to have a great day on your birthday!" Liam said I shook my head but started smiling, these boys never give up!

My mind wandered off to the topic of my dad. I sat there thinking about the letter he wrote for me on one of final days and asked mum to give it to me after he had passed on.

In the letter he wrote about how proud of me he was and how he was the luckiest man on earth to have a daughter like me, how I was one of the only reasons he got up in the morning and how I would always be Daddy's little girl no mater how much I didn't want to be, he wrote how he will watch over me and never love me any differently no matter what decisions I made but he also said that no matter how much I don't want to move on with out him that I am to live life to its fullest potential and not let him stop me from being a happy little girl 'I'm not telling you to forget me, just to purely live everyday as if it is your last and not let the fact that I'm no longer with you in physical form stop you from having a good time' he wrote. Does this mean I have to celebrate my birthday? Even though it was the day of my dads death notice? "20th of July" I mumbled "what was that Lulu?" Liam asked smirking "you heard me!" I said poking my tongue out "that's only like ten days after mine!" Perrie said I nodded "okay, changing the subject! lets talk about.........that's when someone gives a new topic for us to discuss!" I said while the others laughed "how about we leave the love birds alone! I think Lulu is all better now!" Harry said gesturing towards Louis and Eleanor. They are honestly too cute for their own good. I aww'd at the sight and everyone laughed "okay dokey can we leave here I am sick of lying in bed all day!" I whined after reaching over a putting my hand on Louis face "so long, farewell, I don't know the rest of that song! bye sick buddy!" I sung while they laughed at me "good bye Lu! I'll miss you!" Louis said dramatically "now we are going to leave you two love doves alone but if either one of you is pregnant afterward, yes I'm looking at you Louis, I am going to be very disappointed!" Harry said.

After we finished laughing at Harry's statement "can we go yet I'm sick of lying in bed!" I whined they all laughed "it is not a laughing matter! I'm going to be fatty fat fat fat because all I have done is lay in bed all day!" I said "I don't think you need to worry about that love!" Harry said before I posed sassily with one hand on my hip. "lovely darling! Give me sass, I want to see your inner beauty shine through! Gorgeous!" Zayn said pretending to be paparazzi.

Laughing, we all walked downstairs, well everyone except for Louis and Eleanor. "So, Lulu what's the real reason you don't want to celebrate your birthday?" Harry asked as we entered the living room sitting on the big 'L' shaped couch, I shot him a dirty look as I sat next to Liam and Perrie "I think she made it clear enough she didn't want to discuss that upstairs." Danielle said "come on Lulu, just tell us." Harry sighed "you really want to know?" I asked he nodded "okay let's see, it was my thirteenth birthday and so far it was one of the best days of my life, I got to speak to Sammy and that night we were going to the Ballet, anyway half way through the day Dad had to go get a check up at the doctors-" "Lulu, you don't have to tell us, it's okay love." Liam said his words laced with concern wrapping his arm around my shoulder "no it's okay, Harry seems to want to know, anyway an hour or so later he came home and he and mum went to the kitchen and started talking which meant that it was a private conversation cause that's were they talked about stuff that I wasn't to know about. So about fifteen minutes later they come out my mum bawling her eyes out and my dad with tear stain cheeks which immediately made me cry because I can't stand my mum crying an I had never seen dad cry before in my whole life. Dad came over and said 'Baby girl, I have some bad news, I'm so sorry this happened on your birthday, the doctors found the cancer has returned and got into my blood stream, it is rampaging through my body at such a rate that there is nothing they can do about it' I asked him what that meant and he said 'I have two weeks to live.' "
"Oh Lulu" Danielle sighed while everyone looked at me with pity and sympathy in their eyes "nah-uh don't give me that look! I have to learn to get over it!" I said shaking my head "Lu, you arn't expected to get over something like this quickly!" Zayn exclaimed "yes, I realize that, but it had been nearly a whole year. Most people are over it in a couple of months!" I said "Look Love, what you went through no thirteen year old should have too let alone on her birthday but what you have been through and how you have come out on the other side of it is absolutely incredible, you are the most amazing little girl you are just too modest to see it. Losing your father must have been so hard and I can only imagine the pain you lived through but I can tell you any man would be proud to call you his daughter, and your dad was the luckiest man to have you!" Harry lectured "that was one of the nicest things anyone has ever said to me....Thank you" I said shocked by Harry had just said, no one had ever said anything like that to me.