Chris POV
I burst into April's room.
Yoandri right behind me.I see her.I run to her.Thats when I see her.As she struggles to breathe."Yoandri 911 now!"I yell at him.I start to cry as he tries not to."Yes sir.Shes having breathing problems pls come as soon as possible."Yoandri says and hangs up.He sighs frustrated I cn see."What?We left her for one day"he says.i don't answer I keep looking at April.The one I raised as my little sister."Get out!"I yell.Yoandri looks at me hes hurt but idc this is my baby sister."GET OUT NOW!LEAVE!"I yell at him."Look Chris Ik ur hurt but I am too pls understand"He says."UNDERSTAND WHAT?!ONCE SHE GOT CLOSE TO U EVERYTHING STARTED HAPPENENING IF IT WASNT FOR YOU THIS WOULDNT BE HAPPENING SHE WOULD BE SMILING AND LAUGHING AND BEING HAPPY BUT LOOL RN SHES FUCKING DYING.ITS ALL MINE AND YOUR FAULT TOO!"I yell at him."Look Chris don't bring this on urself"he says.I sit and hold her in my arms."It's all my fault.Everything."I whisper to myself."No Chris it isn't look it not either of our faults u need to calm down Chris."he says."Johann."I say."It was him.It was all him.Wasnt?IT WAS RIGht?IT WAS HIM"I start yelling again."No Chris calm down"Yonadri says."She's dead how the fuck am I going to calm down!HUH U TELL ME .HOW THE HELL AM I JUST GOING TO BE WHEM MY BABY SISTER IS FUCKING DEAD!"I yell at him.Yoandri doesn't answr causing me to look up.Hes reading a letter..."April's suicide note"Yoandri says his voice cracking when he said suicide.He breaks down.Right then and there.He falls to the ground.Hes crying.He just sits there.Crying.Thats when I reliaze he really did love her."U..u..u love her"I say quietly."why could no one believe that.I don't think she even believed it.She didn't believe Inherself.She felt like shit.And me I tried to help her.I did for some time.But she probably just never told me how she felt.She was always faking her happiness u could tell In her big brown eyes.She was sad.She kept thinking she wasn't good enough.I showed her she was beautiful.She doesn't deserve this.She was beautiful.And so smart.She was perfect.But in her eyes she told me she didn't believe any of it.She put herself down while we brought her back up.I told her every day that I loved her and many more things.."Yoandri says.a quick pause and he talks more."she said everyone was a fucking liar.For saying she was smart or talented or pretty.She said that those who bullied her got what they want.At that time I thought it was only her insecurity.But then I realized they had damaged her so bad.She didn't eat.That scared me.You know.That she didn't think she was good enough.Bc I thought what could they have done to damaged her so bad.
