Harder,Better,Faster,Stronger.

Chapter 2.

I woke up the next morning in my bed, feeling mixed emotions. I felt bad because my throat and head hurt from crying but I also felt good because there was this refreshed feeling inside of me. I sat up and stretched, looking at the time to see it was 6:30am. I quickly put on some jogging trousers and t-shirt, grabbed my ipod, and left my house.

I looked around to see my large street deserted and calm, perfect for my first jog. No one there to criticize my running or laugh at my fat. I put on some upbeat music and began to jog. After the first 5 minutes, I started to feel tired. But I kept pushing myself, flashing images through my mind of my body, the look on Jasons face as he pulled away from me, and all the popular people laughing at me..

I felt the anger rise through me, and broke out into a run. I ran until my whole body ached. After a while, I slowly stopped, and started to take in my surroundings. I was outside the mall, which was a mile from my house ! I pumped my fist in the air, feeling victorious.

I groaned, remembering I had to walk all the way home. I looked at the taxis whizzing past me on the road, tempted to pull one over. I bit my lip, no ! I'm not going to lose weight by taking a taxi home ! I sighed, and started walking home. I took my headphones out of my ears and decided to just enjoy a nice and quiet stroll home. As I walked, I looked up at the blue sky, when suddenly, a felt a solid shoulder barge me. I looked over my shoulder to see Jason standing there with an angry expression on his face.

“ Watch where you're going.” he growled out.

“ S-sorry.” I stuttered out and quickly walked away before he could say anything else. I really need to learn how to stick up for myself. I continued walking until I came upon a self-defence centre. I actually laughed to myself. What a coincidence !

I entered the automatic doors which led to a white room which I guessed was the reception. At the front desk was a fiery red head around my age who look extremely bored whilst zoning out. I cleared my throat loudly to get her attention and my I guffawed as she nearly fell of her seat. She glared at my laugh but I could tell that she was joking by the way her lip twitched slightly.

“Um, hi. I was wondering if I could sign up for self-defence classes ?” I asked her, sounding a little unsure of myself. Supposing they didn't want to teach me or I couldnt be taught because of my weight ?

“Yeah, that's no problem. Just fill in these forms and we'll send you an email with the information about class times and your instructor.” she replied, whilst popping a stick of chewing gum in her mouth and chewing it loudly. She handed me the form and I quicky wrote down my details and gave it back to her. I did a little awkward wave and started to walk away when she called out,

“Hey !” I turned around with my eyebrow raised, seeing a slight blush on her cheeks. “ C-could you not mention my whole daydreaming thing to my boss please ? He'll kill me or worse fire me if he finds out i've been slacking off !”

I laughed at her horrified expression and nodded compliantly. She grinned at my nod.

“Thank you so much !” she said then glanced down quickly at my form and looked back up. “ Ariana, right ? I'm Jasmine.”

“Hey jasmine.” I said whilst smiling. She smiled back at me. I waved again, but this time more friendly. She waved back whilst laughing at our silent farewell.

When I left the building, I started to feel self pride. I would never even talk to a stranger before without stuttering atleast once or twice. But now I had even managed to share a joke with one. It was definitely another fist pumping moment but i'd already done it once today.... Ah, what the hell, you only live once. I pumped my fist in to the air again, and ignored the stares that the action brought.

I strolled home, taking my time and feeling good about myself. If I carry on like this, I'll probably be nice and slim by the time school starts again. That's IF I manage to keep this going. I Shook that thought out of my head (which made me a bit dizzy).

No Ariana, you cant start thinking like that !

I Know, I know, but supposing I slip up ?

You will if you have that kind of attitude ! Snap out of it ! If you believe you can achieve !

Yeah dude ! You always know what to say, conscience.

I Know, that's my job.

Am I crazy ?

Probably.

This comment made me annoyed. how dare my concsience call me crazy ?

"Stupid Crazy Conscience." I Mumbled.