James and lily returned from The Death

Marlene's Past

Marlene POV

I sat on the chair next to the window. It was probably late in the morning. I read the ice twins an muggle book, Lily give it for me for Christmas. I really liked that book. So, i probably read the ice twins last night in my chair and fall asleep. I have been thinking these days. A lot. I wasn't downstairs much, only for  dinner, breakfast or lunch. I have been thinking about The questions  that i wanna know. Why did John and Hope have to die? Why did they leave me? Hope was so little.. She was only two years old! John was still a young man.. He died too soon. Bud everyone did. My father died when i was five years old, after he leaves mom and me. People said that i looked like him. He has also blue eyes like me, the same nose, but not the same hair. I had the hair of my mother. When my father leaves me and mom, my mother become depressive.  I tried to talk with her, even when i was little. I never talk about this with my friends. Never. I spend the most of my childhood by my grandparents. They teach me everthing, how to swim, how to use magic, everthing. They were so proud of me.. And i'm proud of them. And i will always be.

" Marlene? Can you please open the door. I know you are there' Said a kind, soft voice. ' Go away.' I mutterd. After thinking about my past, i began to cry. " Marlene. I hear that you are crying. Please tell me what happend' Said the same voice. Sirus. Sirus. SIRUS! I don't know why, but i think a lot about him these days. It make my little bit smile, that he cared about me. But  the the tears were still falling from my cheeks. The door openend and there stood Sirus. " Why are you crying?" He asked. " S-Sirus.. I-It's my past...." I cried. ' Huh? I always thought you had a..-' ' NO I HAVEN'T SIRUS! My childhood was a mess! My father leaves me and..' My voice fade away. I couldn't said this. I never talk with anyone about this. But i trusted Sirus right? So maybe i can tell him. ' Your father leaves you? I need to know this, Marlene. I wouldn't said this to anyone i promise' Said Sirus. I nodded. You have to tell him. Now.  " Okay. Well... when i was three years old, sometimes i heard my parents yelling at each other. Months passed and my father leaves. At that age, i couldn't understand it. But.. my mom didn't talk to me at all. She stayed in her bedroom and only looked out the window. I was still young, and sometimes i tried to talk with her. And once again, she didn't answer me. When i was four years old, i started a new life. Because i started to live with my grandparents. They were absolutely nice, they teach everthing." I said. All the time, Sirus had listen to me. He looks like he couldn't speak anymore. " M-Marlene.. I didn't know this. Why did you don't tell us?" Said Sirus. ' I'm so sorry. But... I thought when I will tell us, you wouldn't like me anymore." I said. He smiled softly.