Glory and Gore | phan

sorrow

The Ten Commandments:

1) I am the Lord, your God.

2) Thou shall bring no false idols before me.

3) Do not take the name of the Lord in vain.

4) Remember the Sabbath and keep it holy.

5) Honor thy father and thy mother.

6) Thou shall not kill/murder.

7) Thou shall not commit adultery.

8) Thou shall not steal.

9) Thou shall not bear false witness against your neighbor.

10) Thou shall not covet your neighbor's wife (or anything that belongs to your neighbor).

....

I was hungry again.

And I was feeling a pain I've never felt before. This was a different hurt than any I had experienced; a digging in my chest, a burning and numbing sensation running through my entire body.

My heart felt weak and it hurt when I breathed. It was like God was telling me to die, that I didn't deserve to be here. I was a worse person than my brother so why was he the one to die? I didn't even burry him.

I would never be safe in this world, there was no such thing as safe anymore. It was surviving the night just to be knocked down the next morning. It was stealing and fighting and bleeding. My brother and I had been so lucky to have made it this far. There were so many hazards and threats out there and now that I had to face them alone, I felt more hopeless than ever.