Melted

Chapter 9

|Melted| Chapter 9:

I sat in Chemistry, biting my pencil and thinking about Zayn's apology yesterday and his strange urge to want to be my friend. It seems a little suspicious to me, especially because just a couple days ago he was making fun of me with his little posse and it seemed close to impossible that he'd ever take the time to say something nice to me for once.

"Eleina," my teacher called my name, "pencils were made to write with, not to eat."

I shamefully took the chewed up pencil out of my mouth and heard laughs coming from all around the classroom. Nothing new.

Just when I thought the humiliation was over, my teacher called my name again, "Eleina, do you know what the answer is to number five?"

I really do hate how some teachers randomly call kids to answer questions and put them on the spot. Especially me because it takes me a long time to read and when the teacher calls me and puts me on the spot like that I get freaked out and there is always a long moment of silence.

I swallowed a bunch of saliva before talking, "um, I didn't understand this one..." I said nervously.

My teacher looked at me with a weird look, "what do you mean?" This is one of the easiest ones on this exercise sheet. If you don't understand this one then good luck with the rest of the things we will be covering this year." She turned back around to the white board and began to write something before turning around again, "maybe you should pay more attention to what I'm doing and less attention eating your pencil."

I closed my eyes and tried to hold back the tears, then I heard someone say, "is she crying...?" That's when I covered my face with a strand of hair and let the tears roll down one after another.

When the teacher finally left me alone, I continued thinking about Zayn and his oddly nice way of talking to me. The more I think about it though, the more I want to forgive him.. And that might be a mistake.

But I don't want to lose the chance of having a friend. This is a good opportunity and if I let it go, then I might really regret it later because I won't always want to be the lonely girl that no one remembers after we all graduate. But then again, who does want to be that girl?

It wouldn't just be a friend either, it'd be Zayn Malik. But Zayn Malik being my friend might not be the best idea either because he could do something jerky and fool me into thinking he's a softy when he's really only hanging out with me because someone dared him to or something like that.

These types of thoughts scare me because I know I'm thinking too hard about this situation but then again, I do have to be careful with who I hang around with because I don't want to end up regretting having a fake friend.

Zayn seems nice but what will happen if we get into an argument and he gets angry with me and ditches me to go hang out with Lucas and Daniel again and ends up telling them all this bad stuff about me and my reputation gets even more negative than it already is.

There's that one saying that everyone says, "don't judge a book by its cover" and I used to ignore the meaning of that but now that I'm in this situation, I shouldn't ignore it anymore. All this time I thought all Zayn was was just another one of those jerky teenage boys that are in the movies. But ever since his apology, he seems like one of those boys that really cares about people deep down and his meanness is just a disguise for his soft side. It's the disguise that proves to his friends that he's still cool and being soft is too lame for someone like "him".